It was an absolute pleasure to speak to Milli about her relationship with knitting. Right now she is the owner of Tribe Yarns, a yarn shop in Richmond-upon-Thames in London but she has also circumnavigated the globe on a yacht with her family and worked with Richard Branson as his CFO. Knitting has been a constant through all her adventures.

Milli also has a qualification in Applied Colour Psychology, and I really enjoyed learning about the theory behind how different colours can impact our mood and energy levels. Since experiencing Hurricane Irma, Milli tries not to become attached to material possessions, so she is also the ultimate process knitter! She is not afraid of ripping back to make something exactly the way she wants it, Milli rarely keeps her own knits, and never knits the same thing twice…..this includes socks!

You can see the full transcript for this episode on the blog.

You can follow Milli on Instagram at @tribeyarnslife

Website: Tribe Yarns

Follow Mia on Instagram @knittingistherapeutic

Website: Therapeutic Knitting

Transcript
Mia Hobbs:

Hello, and welcome back to series two of the Why I

Mia Hobbs:

Knit podcast. My name is Dr. Mia Hobbs and I'm a clinical

Mia Hobbs:

psychologist who's passionate about knitting and its benefits

Mia Hobbs:

for our mental wellbeing. Each episode I interview a different

Mia Hobbs:

knitter about why they knit and how it benefits their mental

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health. This week on the podcast, I'm joined by Milli

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Abrams, who is the owner of Tribe Yarns, a yarn shop in

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Richmond, London. Milli has a qualification in Applied Colour

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Psychology so I particularly wanted to ask her more about

Mia Hobbs:

this and about how colour can impact on mental health.

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Unfortunately, there is a crackle on Milli's end of the

Mia Hobbs:

audio, which we were unable to resolve while we were recording.

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However, Milli is such an inspiring and interesting guest

Mia Hobbs:

that I'm sure you'll still really enjoy this interview.

Mia Hobbs:

Hi Milli, welcome to the podcast.

Milli Abrams:

Hello.

Mia Hobbs:

I always start by asking where your story with

Mia Hobbs:

knitting began.

Milli Abrams:

Okay, that's a relatively easy one, I guess. I

Milli Abrams:

was about six or seven years old when I started knitting. My mum

Milli Abrams:

used to knit and she introduced it to me over a summer holiday

Milli Abrams:

and I pretty much got addicted straightaway. And I was the sort

Milli Abrams:

of child that never really sat down. You know, I was always a

Milli Abrams:

bit ants-in-my-pants, climbing trees and that kind of thing.

Milli Abrams:

And so I guess it was as much of a surprise to her as it was to

Milli Abrams:

me that I loved it. And I got obsessed and I ended up blowing

Milli Abrams:

out all of my playdates with friends outside. I was like,

Milli Abrams:

"No, I'm at home knitting." I was determined to get it done.

Mia Hobbs:

Oh wow! So you absolutely went with it straight

Mia Hobbs:

away.

Milli Abrams:

Yes, straight away. And to begin with, at

Milli Abrams:

least for the first year, I don't think I could purl at all.

Milli Abrams:

I could only knit. But I really liked stocking stitch. So I

Milli Abrams:

would knit a whole line and then I'd give it to my mom to purl

Milli Abrams:

back. [Laughs] I did eventually get the hang of purling but I

Milli Abrams:

could only do it then for the next little while standing up at

Milli Abrams:

the ironing board, for some reason. I was using crappy

Milli Abrams:

straight needles back then. You know how we had those awful sort

Milli Abrams:

of Aero needles that weighed a little bit too much, I guess.

Milli Abrams:

For my little hands they were quite long, with blunt tips. And

Milli Abrams:

I used to knit way too tight, like really tightly. So I used

Milli Abrams:

to have to use the ironing board to jam the needle into the

Milli Abrams:

stitch.

Mia Hobbs:

Oh wow! Yeah, I actually had one of the kids in

Mia Hobbs:

the therapeutic knitting group I've been running say to me,

Mia Hobbs:

"It's really surprising that grannies knit because you need

Mia Hobbs:

so much strength to get this to fit!" . And I thought, "I think

Mia Hobbs:

someone's going slightly wrong here, because I don't feel like

Mia Hobbs:

I'm using muscles to knit, particularly!" [Laughs]

Milli Abrams:

No! And then back then (that would have been in

Milli Abrams:

the early 80s) we all knit with crappy acrylic wools, so it was

Milli Abrams:

really strong.

Mia Hobbs:

Oh yeah, it's hard to break. It's harder than wool.

Milli Abrams:

Exactly. If I'd have started with a proper wool,

Milli Abrams:

had I been knitting with the tightness and the strength that

Milli Abrams:

I was applying to that acrylic, it would have broken right away,

Milli Abrams:

and I would have realised that it was too tight. But I got away

Milli Abrams:

with it back then.

Mia Hobbs:

Okay. And what do you think hooked you in? Because it

Mia Hobbs:

sounds like it was a bit of a surprise, if you were quite an

Mia Hobbs:

active kid, that you could sit still and knit?

Milli Abrams:

Yeah, it was definitely the challenge of it.

Milli Abrams:

But I did feel it was very calming, the repetitive

Milli Abrams:

stitches, and there was something about making and

Milli Abrams:

creating, and then being able to make your own creative choices.

Milli Abrams:

It was a bit like Lego, where you could sort of go your own

Milli Abrams:

way with it, and you could spend hours and hours and hours doing

Milli Abrams:

it and it just felt good. So yeah, I think it was that, and

Milli Abrams:

then RIGHT away I started knitting colourwork and intarsia

Milli Abrams:

and that kind of thing, because that was very early 80s.

Mia Hobbs:

That's what I wondered: whether you were

Mia Hobbs:

knitting from patterns or whether you were just kind of

Mia Hobbs:

knitting scarves.

Milli Abrams:

Both. No, I never did scarves in the beginning. I

Milli Abrams:

just did lots of patches of things. And then I made stuff

Milli Abrams:

for dolls, you know, just little things.

Mia Hobbs:

Did you kind of make those up as you went along

Mia Hobbs:

rather than finding a pattern for them?

Milli Abrams:

A little bit, yeah. So I might have had a

Mia Hobbs:

Yeah, sure. I guess a lot of us learn a lot of how to

Mia Hobbs:

pattern that had a chart for some sort of fair isle motif and

Mia Hobbs:

I would have just used that to make some random little thing

Mia Hobbs:

for a doll or a teddy bear jumper or something. I didn't

Mia Hobbs:

play with teddy bears or anything back then, but I just

Mia Hobbs:

wanted to make little things. And I don't think I had enough

Mia Hobbs:

yarn to make a big sweater. Then eventually my mum took me to

Mia Hobbs:

John Lewis and we picked out a pattern, and that was the

Mia Hobbs:

patchwork intarsia and fair isle cardigan. It was very

Mia Hobbs:

complicated. But I decided I was going to make that. And then by

Mia Hobbs:

the time I'd finished it, I could barely get it on. Because

Mia Hobbs:

I was such a tight knitter, it was so small. [Laughs] And I

Mia Hobbs:

hadn't appreciated that you had to leave a long enough end to

Mia Hobbs:

darn the ends in. So they'd started to pull out, so I

Mia Hobbs:

superglued them down, which made it really jabby inside. It was

Mia Hobbs:

terrible! It's a horrible little thing. But my mum never knit

Mia Hobbs:

intarsia or colourwork. She just used to do plain knitting and

Mia Hobbs:

maybe a few cables. So she couldn't really advise me on

Mia Hobbs:

that. That was a learning process!

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solve problems in knitting through trial and error.

Milli Abrams:

Yeah, and back then there wasn't any social

Milli Abrams:

media or any pressure like that. It's not as though we were

Milli Abrams:

comparing ourselves to each other. And no-one I knew knit.

Milli Abrams:

So it was perfectly fine for me to keep making all these

Milli Abrams:

mistakes and not feel like a total failure. It was just

Milli Abrams:

learning.

Mia Hobbs:

But I think also now, if you knew what the mistake was

Mia Hobbs:

called, you could search on YouTube as to how to fix it, I

Mia Hobbs:

suppose. Like when I have a plumbing issue that I feel might

Mia Hobbs:

be within my beginner's realm. So you know, a bit like that if

Mia Hobbs:

you were a beginner knitter, whereas that didn't exist.

Milli Abrams:

No. And I'd definitely say that there is so

Milli Abrams:

much more help. You could Google everything now, with plumbing

Milli Abrams:

and everything. And back then I think we did used to do a bit

Milli Abrams:

more trial and error. It was either that or spend hours and

Milli Abrams:

hours at the library researching something. We used to just try

Milli Abrams:

it, didn't we? With lots of things.

Mia Hobbs:

Okay, so did you carry on knitting? So you've

Mia Hobbs:

knit fairly regularly since you were six or seven?

Milli Abrams:

Yeah, so that would have been 40 years ago.

Milli Abrams:

But no, I definitely had breaks. So there were the chaotic

Milli Abrams:

teenage years when I had exams and things, when I just probably

Milli Abrams:

wouldn't have had time. And yeah, there were times in my

Milli Abrams:

life where I definitely let it go for maybe two or three years

Milli Abrams:

at a time. And they were probably the times when I

Milli Abrams:

shouldn't have let it go and should have made time. You know,

Milli Abrams:

it's always the way, isn't it, when you feel like you haven't

Milli Abrams:

got time to meditate, that's when you should be meditating.

Milli Abrams:

It's the same with knitting. And then I picked it up again, like

Milli Abrams:

PROPERLY properly, when I was pregnant with Indy. He's 18 now,

Milli Abrams:

so that was 18 years ago. And knit every morning before I got

Milli Abrams:

out of bed. I used to get morning sickness, so Darren

Milli Abrams:

would bring me breakfast in bed every morning and I would sit

Milli Abrams:

and knit while he was making breakfast.

Mia Hobbs:

Were you knitting for Indy?

Milli Abrams:

Yeah, I was knitting booties. Lots of

Milli Abrams:

booties. I had this amazing book of like, I don't know, 100

Milli Abrams:

bootie patterns, but it had lots of different techniques in it.

Mia Hobbs:

Oh no! Have you gifted them?

Mia Hobbs:

So I was learning something every day with a new knitting

Mia Hobbs:

technique, and I was getting to use different colour yarns and

Mia Hobbs:

different fibres. I had a whole bag of them and just worked my

Mia Hobbs:

way through. I don't know how many booties I made. I must have

Mia Hobbs:

made 30 or 40 pairs of different booties while I was pregnant

Mia Hobbs:

with him, and I made a big patchwork blanket. But then when

Mia Hobbs:

he was born, he had enormous feet and he didn't fit any of

Mia Hobbs:

the booties.

Milli Abrams:

I gifted all of them and they all fit normal

Milli Abrams:

babies. Indy had giant feet! And only the giant duck feet fit

Milli Abrams:

him. [Laughs]

Mia Hobbs:

Aw! I found that I couldn't get booties to stay on

Mia Hobbs:

my children!

Milli Abrams:

No, they didn't all, which is kind of why I made

Milli Abrams:

them all. Some of them were really good patterns that stayed

Milli Abrams:

on and the others just were sort of there for photos, I suppose.

Mia Hobbs:

Yeah. Oh, that's amazing. So it's been on and

Mia Hobbs:

off, but mainly on, certainly on for the last 18 years.

Milli Abrams:

Yeah. So when Indy was born, we then emigrated to

Milli Abrams:

Canada when he was eight months old. And it was really cold

Milli Abrams:

there, so I knit lots. And then when he was seven, we moved on

Milli Abrams:

to the boat to go circumnavigate, and I did knit

Milli Abrams:

on the boat as well. Probably not as much.... no maybe I did.

Milli Abrams:

I did, but like different fibres. A lot of silk and cotton

Milli Abrams:

because it's hot. And then we moved to the Caribbean for five

Milli Abrams:

years, and I knit there as well, but lots of lace weight blankets

Milli Abrams:

and that kind of thing.

Mia Hobbs:

Okay. Did you feel like the motivation was less? Or

Mia Hobbs:

is it not really so much about the final product?

Milli Abrams:

It's never been about the final product for me.

Milli Abrams:

It''s never ever been about the final product. I for my whole

Milli Abrams:

life have knit things and then just given them away, almost

Milli Abrams:

immediately. I don't tend to keep any of my knits for myself.

Mia Hobbs:

Is it more for the process? Because obviously there

Mia Hobbs:

is a joy to giving things to people for the point of giving a

Mia Hobbs:

gift, that is more meaningful, but it sounds also a lot of it's

Mia Hobbs:

about the process for you.

Milli Abrams:

It's the process. It's completely the process,

Milli Abrams:

yeah.

Mia Hobbs:

If you were on a desert island with one ball of

Mia Hobbs:

brown yarn that you had to re-knit over and over again,

Mia Hobbs:

you'd be knitting it.

Milli Abrams:

Absolutely. And I had to do that in the Caribbean

Milli Abrams:

all the time, because we couldn't get anything shipped to

Milli Abrams:

us. And it would take months and months. So I would just knit

Milli Abrams:

something, rip it out, knit it again. I did that all the time.

Milli Abrams:

So it is very much process.

Mia Hobbs:

Yeah. And does it matter what you knit? As in the

Mia Hobbs:

techniques? Is garter stitch equally valuable to knitting

Mia Hobbs:

lace or cables? Or does it matter?

Milli Abrams:

I think it depends. It's got to be

Milli Abrams:

something new for me every time. So I very rarely, I think never,

Milli Abrams:

make the second sock, because I've made the sock and I don't

Milli Abrams:

want to make another one. So I almost never make the same thing

Milli Abrams:

twice, unless I'm changing the technique or changing something

Milli Abrams:

up about it. I recently knit two Badger & Bloom sweaters where I

Milli Abrams:

changed the technique quite a lot both times, just to test it

Milli Abrams:

out.

Mia Hobbs:

And the colour isn't enough of a change?

Milli Abrams:

No, it's not really. I knit for colour... A

Milli Abrams:

lot of the time, it's because of the colour I want to hang out

Milli Abrams:

with, so that will determine what I'm knitting. But it's got

Milli Abrams:

to be something new that I haven't experienced before. It

Milli Abrams:

might be that I have to experience a new fibre. Yeah, I

Milli Abrams:

think it's technique more than anything, though. And it's

Milli Abrams:

weird, after 40 years of doing lots of knitting and learning

Milli Abrams:

all the [inaudible], I'm still discovering new techniques all

Milli Abrams:

the time, which is brilliant. I think that's such a cool thing

Milli Abrams:

about knitting.

Mia Hobbs:

Yeah, you can't ever run out.

Milli Abrams:

No, you can't really. And I do knit things

Milli Abrams:

several times and rip them out, but I've just started a cardigan

Milli Abrams:

yesterday which I will rip out today and start again, because

Milli Abrams:

there's a couple of things I thought of during the night that

Milli Abrams:

I should have done differently. So yeah, I'm fine with ripping

out. So about the gifting:

yes, I do knit specifically for

out. So about the gifting:

gifts, but no, usually I'm knitting something and then I

out. So about the gifting:

think, "Oh, who'd like this? Who would this fit? Who wants it?".

Mia Hobbs:

Okay. I'd love to hear more about colour, because

Mia Hobbs:

I think you said you've got a qualification in colour...

Milli Abrams:

Applied colour psychology.

Mia Hobbs:

Applied colour psychology. So I'd love to hear

Mia Hobbs:

about that, and your ideas about colour and how it benefits your

Mia Hobbs:

mental wellbeing, being around colour. I like the idea of

Mia Hobbs:

choosing a colour you want to hang out with! Because I think I

Mia Hobbs:

do that with my knitting projects. I have quite a long

Mia Hobbs:

relationship with them because I'm not that fast. [Laughs]

Milli Abrams:

Colour is very, very important. I didn't know

Milli Abrams:

anything about... I'm an accountant so it wasn't anything

Milli Abrams:

that I'd studied in the early days, but I have an Indian

Milli Abrams:

background so we've always been very experimentative with

Milli Abrams:

colour, with our saris and things. And approaching my 40s,

Milli Abrams:

I suppose... late 30s/40s... I got a bit frustrated with how

Milli Abrams:

sensible people were being around colour and how coy they

Milli Abrams:

Would you do that historically, as well, when you didn't work in

Milli Abrams:

were, and how they were embarrassed about using certain

Milli Abrams:

colours, and that kind of thing. If you walked down the high

Milli Abrams:

street a couple of years ago, all you'd see was grey, khaki,

Milli Abrams:

maybe a little bit of mustard. I couldn't buy the colours that I

Milli Abrams:

wanted from a shop, so I did use knitting to introduce those

Milli Abrams:

colours into my life. But I also realised a long time ago that

Milli Abrams:

certain colours do certain things to my mood, and I can use

Milli Abrams:

that to my advantage. So when I use really, really saturated

Milli Abrams:

bright colours, they will wake me up, so I can use them in the

Milli Abrams:

morning to just really get going, or before a meeting to

Milli Abrams:

get energised, or something like that. Especially during

Milli Abrams:

meetings. So I knit through all my board meetings and things. I

Milli Abrams:

would always knit and I'd always pick a bright colour for that

Milli Abrams:

because it just energised me.

Milli Abrams:

yarn and knitting?

Milli Abrams:

Yeah, absolutely.

Mia Hobbs:

And I'm guessing you were the only person doing that!

Milli Abrams:

Yeah, I was the only person knitting. And it was

Milli Abrams:

fine. It wasn't fine, right at the beginning when I was a

Milli Abrams:

junior. I'd get told off. But as I became more senior, I could

Milli Abrams:

tell people that it actually helped me focus and they all got

Milli Abrams:

used to it. So I'd sit in a meeting with Branson or whatever

Milli Abrams:

and I'd always be knitting. But I also conversely couldn't pick

Milli Abrams:

up those same colours and knit with them right before bed. I

Milli Abrams:

always knit right before bed, but I can't knit the really

Milli Abrams:

really bright colours under a fairly bright light because they

Milli Abrams:

wake me up and they don't allow me to sort of gently ease down

Milli Abrams:

at the end of the day.

Mia Hobbs:

So you need more than one project on the go for

Mia Hobbs:

different situations.

Milli Abrams:

Yes. Different for colour but also different for

Milli Abrams:

"Do I really want to escape into a very challenging pattern with

Milli Abrams:

lots of charts and things because I need to just not think

Milli Abrams:

about everything right now? Or do I just want something that is

Milli Abrams:

in my hands, and TV knitting, so that I can listen to whatever

Milli Abrams:

I'm listening to?"

Mia Hobbs:

That's a really common theme that has come up

Mia Hobbs:

again and again, and certainly something I relate very strongly

Mia Hobbs:

to. The idea of having to have something complicated to absorb

Mia Hobbs:

yourself in when you need to escape from real life, or

Mia Hobbs:

something that you could knit while you're listening to your

Mia Hobbs:

kids read, that doesn't require any of your brain. And I

Mia Hobbs:

certainly would knit through Zoom meetings and training

Mia Hobbs:

courses, and have never been anything other than the only

Mia Hobbs:

knitter. [Laughs]

Milli Abrams:

Yeah, it is weird, isn't it? I found when Indy was

Milli Abrams:

little, you know, when your kids are little and you have to wait

Milli Abrams:

all the time, you've got to wait for them to finish a sports

Milli Abrams:

match or whatever, there's just a lot of waiting in life.

Milli Abrams:

Waiting at the dentist and all these things. And I just found

Milli Abrams:

that if I always had my knitting, I never really minded

Milli Abrams:

the wait. Actually, I quite liked the wait. It was a really

Milli Abrams:

good time for me to just get into my knitting. And I travel a

Milli Abrams:

lot and airport delays were pleasurable, because I had my

Milli Abrams:

knitting with me. And it just meant that I could chill out and

Milli Abrams:

knit, and it didn't matter that the planes was delayed. I don't

Milli Abrams:

know how people that don't knit cope, I honestly don't! I just

Milli Abrams:

don't know how they manage to wait for anything.

Mia Hobbs:

I do feel a slight anxiety, I think, if I have to

Mia Hobbs:

do something like that, that I don't have my knitting with me

Mia Hobbs:

because I've had too many things to think about and it's just not

Mia Hobbs:

made it in the bag. But quite often, if I'm going away for a

Mia Hobbs:

weekend and getting a train somewhere... The other weekend,

Mia Hobbs:

I forgot the dress I was planning to wear out in the

Mia Hobbs:

evening, but I had three knitting projects with me.

Mia Hobbs:

[Laughs] Because that was my priority, in my head!

Milli Abrams:

Definitely.

Mia Hobbs:

I don't know whether you learnt about this in the

Mia Hobbs:

course you did, about whether there are particular colours

Mia Hobbs:

that are more associated with positive or negative mood, or

Mia Hobbs:

whether it's not really like that. Whether different people

Mia Hobbs:

have different...

Milli Abrams:

Yeah, it's a really, really interesting

Milli Abrams:

topic. And it's huge and very deep, so it would take hours to

Milli Abrams:

go over everything. But I guess the main points were... I'm very

Milli Abrams:

into maths, maths is my background, and there are

Milli Abrams:

patterns and wavelengths behind each colour and some colours

Milli Abrams:

harmonise because of the patterns and the waves, and some

Milli Abrams:

colours don't. So that was one of the things that we learnt a

Milli Abrams:

lot about. So, you know, I'm good at putting colours together

Milli Abrams:

and I'm good at avoiding certain colour combinations that are

Milli Abrams:

horrible. And I know that intuitively somewhat, I guess,

Milli Abrams:

from practising a lot, but also because of the maths behind the

Milli Abrams:

colour. So there's that. There's the colours that people should

Milli Abrams:

and shouldn't wear... well, it's not really a should... it's the

Milli Abrams:

colours that suit people more than the colours that don't. So

Milli Abrams:

that was also part of the course. And that has more to do

Milli Abrams:

with who you are and your personality, as well as your own

Milli Abrams:

personal colouring, but a lot more to do with your

Milli Abrams:

personality. And it's broken into four separate groups. So I

Milli Abrams:

think recently, companies like House of Colour have taken those

Milli Abrams:

and called them seasons to try and organise that a little bit

Milli Abrams:

more. And that's fine. They've done it completely wrong in a

Milli Abrams:

couple of ways, because they've tried to make it equal across

Milli Abrams:

the seasons, which is not the case right now, but that's a

Milli Abrams:

whole 'nother topic. So there's that, and then there's also the

Milli Abrams:

behavioural aspect of how a colour will influence your mood

Milli Abrams:

and why you might be drawn to it, and why you might not be

Milli Abrams:

drawn to it at a particular time. So for example, if you had

Milli Abrams:

an orange dining plate or were sitting in an orange room while

Milli Abrams:

you were eating, you probably will eat more. You'll over eat.

Milli Abrams:

It's just influence. It opens up your mind, and abundance and

Milli Abrams:

that kind of thing. You just tend to over consume with

Milli Abrams:

orange. Purple tends to be a colour that is for people that

Milli Abrams:

are feeling a bit less sociable at that particular time, or very

Milli Abrams:

much more choosy. It's a colour that people are drawn to when

Milli Abrams:

they're hungover. It's not all shades of purple, but I'm

Milli Abrams:

generalising just for now. Red, you know, we're very familiar

Milli Abrams:

with red being a little bit more aggressive, a bit more in your

Milli Abrams:

face, just open, just much more bold, And then blue is a really

Milli Abrams:

great one for focusing. Again, not all blues. So when Indy was

Milli Abrams:

having exams when he was younger and he used to pick up some

Milli Abrams:

knitting (he doesn't tend to anymore), then I would have him

Milli Abrams:

knit with blue yarns as a little break between study sessions,

Milli Abrams:

because it would keep that part of his brain active but allow

Milli Abrams:

him to have a little break from studying. So blue was great for

Milli Abrams:

that. And I will use it. Like I said, if I need to be really

Milli Abrams:

thinking and thinking spreadsheets and that kind of

Milli Abrams:

thing, I'll pick up my blue project for a little bit and

Milli Abrams:

just calm down with that, and then go straight into my

Milli Abrams:

thinking piece.

Mia Hobbs:

So you're very deliberate about your choices of

Mia Hobbs:

what you're knitting with, to fit the circumstances in your

Mia Hobbs:

life?

Milli Abrams:

I mean, it just happens now. I think what I'm

Milli Abrams:

deliberate about is making sure that I've got enough projects at

Milli Abrams:

hand or around. I don't like to have more than three projects on

Milli Abrams:

the go, because I am someone that likes to finish. I don't

Milli Abrams:

tend to have lots of WIPs. I like finishing. But I do have

Milli Abrams:

three that are intentionally quite different from each other

Milli Abrams:

because of what they will do for my mental health.

Mia Hobbs:

So that sounds very deliberate in that sense. And I

Mia Hobbs:

think I certainly would relate to that: that the things I'm

Mia Hobbs:

working on have to fit different needs for me. But I don't

Mia Hobbs:

actually think about the colour in that way, which is really

Mia Hobbs:

interesting. And actually, when I spoke to Betsan Corkhill, who

Mia Hobbs:

is an expert in therapeutic knitting, she speaks a lot about

Mia Hobbs:

the idea of using knitting to... rather than it reflecting the

Mia Hobbs:

mood you're in, thinking about the mood you want to move

Mia Hobbs:

yourself into. And that sounds very similar to your ethos.

Milli Abrams:

Yeah. And also, with the finished garment, when

Milli Abrams:

you're wearing it... Like I'll use the colours of the garments

Milli Abrams:

that I'm wearing to convey a certain type of my personality

Milli Abrams:

in a public setting, or not. So for example, for my whole life I

Milli Abrams:

was an accountant; I so much was drawn to what people would refer

Milli Abrams:

to as the winter colours, like cooler colours, and they do suit

Milli Abrams:

me, your blacks, your whites, your strong reds, peacocks, that

Milli Abrams:

kind of thing. And I was always really drawn to that. But it

Milli Abrams:

does make me much less approachable as a person. So

Milli Abrams:

when I opened the shop, one of the things that I talked to

Milli Abrams:

Angela about (who's like the guru of colour therapy), she was

Milli Abrams:

like, "Well, just make sure that you're never in there wearing

Milli Abrams:

blacks and whites." So this new business of mine was not like

Milli Abrams:

accounting; I needed to be approachable and soft. And I

Milli Abrams:

needed to sort of bring out my more autumn aspects. So I wear a

Milli Abrams:

lot more rich autumnal colours and navies and that kind of

Milli Abrams:

thing, which also suit me but I wouldn't have dreamt of wearing

Milli Abrams:

them as an accountant. I didn't want to be that person in that

Milli Abrams:

setting, whereas I do now. And then conversely, if I'm going to

Milli Abrams:

something else where I just want a bit more glamour, I'll wear

Milli Abrams:

black again.

Mia Hobbs:

I wonder whether that was also to do with... I'm

Mia Hobbs:

guessing you were in a more male-dominated environment when

Mia Hobbs:

you were in business? Or maybe needing to convey more power

Milli Abrams:

Yeah, right in the beginning I was. I mean, I am

Milli Abrams:

than you do in your yarn shop.

Milli Abrams:

quite a small woman and I just needed more help with the power

Milli Abrams:

that I was exuding when I was telling people no, they couldn't

Mia Hobbs:

Yeah, sure. I wonder whether there are other ways

Mia Hobbs:

have that money or whatever it was.

Mia Hobbs:

that we haven't talked about that you feel knitting is

Mia Hobbs:

beneficial for your mental wellbeing.

Milli Abrams:

We get loads of people in the shop that will

Milli Abrams:

come by and say, "Oh, that's lovely. I wish I could do that,

Milli Abrams:

but I don't have the patience for that." And I am the least

Milli Abrams:

patient person I've ever met in my life. I'm just not patient,

Milli Abrams:

I'm not tolerant. And therefore knitting is even more important

Milli Abrams:

for me than it would be for someone who already is calm and

Milli Abrams:

zen and patient. So I think when people say that, I'd love the

Milli Abrams:

people to know... especially men, I think, because they tend

Milli Abrams:

to be more the ones that are like, "Oh, I don't have time. I

Milli Abrams:

work." And the other thing I hear is "I don't have time." I

Milli Abrams:

don't have time, I work crazy hours, but I still find time for

Milli Abrams:

knitting. I think it's important to have something, especially in

Milli Abrams:

this day and age when we are just overstimulated all the

Milli Abrams:

time. If you could have something like meditating or

Milli Abrams:

colouring in or knitting, that takes you off your device and

Milli Abrams:

gives you something repetitive and small, and it is about those

Milli Abrams:

micro movements, that's where the magic is, releasing the good

Milli Abrams:

hormones. And with knitting that means not knitting on needles

Milli Abrams:

that are more than about 5mm. There's a sweet spot with a

Milli Abrams:

knitting needle to keep it micro, to get the maximum

Milli Abrams:

benefit with your serotonin. Everyone sort of needs that, I

Milli Abrams:

think, these days. I've actually lived on a desert island.

Mia Hobbs:

And even then you still brought your knitting!

Milli Abrams:

Yeah, and I would still bring my knitting!

Milli Abrams:

[Laughs]

Mia Hobbs:

I would too.

Milli Abrams:

I meditate and I have done lots over the years.

Milli Abrams:

And that comes and goes a lot more than my knitting does,

Milli Abrams:

because at the end of the day I feel guilty about sitting down

Milli Abrams:

and doing nothing. I just have that. I don't know what it is,

Milli Abrams:

but I do feel guilty about that unless I'm knitting. And then

Milli Abrams:

somewhere in my head, I know I'm creating and relaxing, and then

Milli Abrams:

I can really let myself be in it and sit and do it for hours,

Milli Abrams:

which is really important.

Mia Hobbs:

I suppose I've heard quite often the idea that

Mia Hobbs:

knitting is kind of a substitute for meditation, or a form of

Mia Hobbs:

meditation. And several of the people I've spoken to, and

Mia Hobbs:

certainly I think this is probably true of me, have

Mia Hobbs:

classified themselves as failed meditators, therefore they are

Mia Hobbs:

knitters, and they get a kind of similar thing from it. It sounds

Mia Hobbs:

like you've stuck with your knitting maybe more constantly

Mia Hobbs:

than you have with the meditation.

Milli Abrams:

Yeah, definitely. I have stuck with knitting a lot

Milli Abrams:

more. And I think mainly because it doesn't do the same thing for

Milli Abrams:

me as meditating. Meditating is definitely much more intense.

Milli Abrams:

But I think it's more the portability and the

Milli Abrams:

practicality. So I can still do it at a train station and hear

Milli Abrams:

when my train is coming and not be completely cut off from the

Milli Abrams:

world. And when I do meditate, I do it to get to a much deeper

Milli Abrams:

state, and it takes a lot longer, like two or three hours.

Milli Abrams:

And it has to be silent, and I can't have the family running

Milli Abrams:

around. I can't do that as often. I can pick up my knitting

Milli Abrams:

ten times a day and just have a little meditative break with my

Milli Abrams:

knitting, so I think that's why I do it a lot more. And these

Milli Abrams:

days, yarns are SO much nicer than they used to be, and

Milli Abrams:

patterns are just everywhere and so accessible. It's just so much

Milli Abrams:

easier to find the right project.

Mia Hobbs:

And in terms of what you're drawn to do you like a

Mia Hobbs:

variety in terms of yarn? Is that also something that floats

Mia Hobbs:

your boat?

Milli Abrams:

Yeah, massively. So I love the super, super

Milli Abrams:

rustic Icelandics. Absolutely love those. And then I really

Milli Abrams:

like my super high end silks and cashmeres. It's important to me

Milli Abrams:

that I know where the yarns come from, and then I know that it's

Milli Abrams:

ethically made. And it's important to me that it doesn't

Milli Abrams:

have plastic in it. But other than that, a wide variety and a

Milli Abrams:

wide variety of gauges. And I do knit with chunky yarns

Milli Abrams:

sometimes, usually if it's just because I have to make a short

Milli Abrams:

sample/I have to bang out a gift really quickly. But my sort of

Milli Abrams:

sweet spot for a needle is about the 3.75 range, and that will

Milli Abrams:

give me the max pleasure.

Mia Hobbs:

I'm the same actually. I've heard a lot of

Mia Hobbs:

people on the podcast who don't like knitting on the smaller

Mia Hobbs:

gauges. And I didn't know whether it was because of that,

Mia Hobbs:

or just the things I wanted to knit recently, that I ended up

Mia Hobbs:

knitting with some larger gauge... I mean larger for me,

Mia Hobbs:

like an Aran weight yarn, so like a 5 maybe or 5.5. I'm quite

Mia Hobbs:

a loose knitter. But my hands don't like it as much. I find

Mia Hobbs:

that I don't get RSI at all if I knitted on 2.25 or 3 or quite

Mia Hobbs:

tiny needles, and knitted with 4-ply. I could do that probably

Mia Hobbs:

forever. Whereas if it gets bigger, even a DK, I think my

Mia Hobbs:

hands struggle a bit more. And they don't love cotton either.

Milli Abrams:

Yeah, there's no stretch in cotton. Unless you

Milli Abrams:

get a chain knit. I've recently discovered really great chain

Milli Abrams:

knits, which is a fairly new thing in the industry, because

Milli Abrams:

the old chain knits were terrible. But the new chain

Milli Abrams:

knits that they use cotton for have stretch in them, so if you

Mia Hobbs:

That's interesting. I was interested in the idea about

Mia Hobbs:

want to knit cotton, get a chain knit. It's brilliant. Okay. But

Mia Hobbs:

the kind of things people say about knitting in the shop,

Mia Hobbs:

yeah, the bigger needles, and it just becomes more of a macro

Mia Hobbs:

movement and you tend to involve a bit more shoulder and elbow

Mia Hobbs:

because you must have a lot of conversations with people who

Mia Hobbs:

and things. It's not something that you can just do with your

Mia Hobbs:

fingertips. Yeah, you need to fight a bit more with the process.

Mia Hobbs:

are new or want to start knitting, and super-experienced

Mia Hobbs:

knitters, about whether they say things about what knitting does

Mia Hobbs:

for them, or what kind of questions they ask you, whether

Mia Hobbs:

they ask for your help with colour?

Milli Abrams:

Yeah, we get lots of feedback from knitters about

Milli Abrams:

how, especially during lockdown, it just saved them, for a lot of

Milli Abrams:

people.

Mia Hobbs:

Is that more existing knitters, would you say?

Milli Abrams:

No, both during lockdown actually. And then with

Milli Abrams:

the experience, I'd say the majority was people that had

Milli Abrams:

returned to knitting. So they've had the greatest benefit, and

Milli Abrams:

they've usually not done it for a long time and they did it on

Milli Abrams:

really old-style needles with old yarn, and everything's moved

Milli Abrams:

on to such a huge extent that the tools are just 100%

Milli Abrams:

different to what they used to be, and the yarns. So they've

Milli Abrams:

had the greatest sort of wow moments. We have lots of people

Milli Abrams:

who are experiencing grief who turned to knitting. And

Milli Abrams:

actually, I think there's a lot of doctors that tell people that

Milli Abrams:

they should try knitting when they're experiencing grief. And

Milli Abrams:

it seems to really, really help them just sort of metabolise it,

Milli Abrams:

I guess. What was your... oh, the colours. Yeah, colours is my

Milli Abrams:

thing, so yes, I do get a lot of...

Mia Hobbs:

So you enjoy having those conversations with people

Mia Hobbs:

and helping them pick.

Milli Abrams:

That's my favourite thing to do. And it's

Mia Hobbs:

It's interesting that for you, you know more about the

Mia Hobbs:

funny how there's so many people who feel really lost with

Mia Hobbs:

colours, or really just don't trust themselves with it. And

Mia Hobbs:

then you can get colours wrong. I feel actually physically

Mia Hobbs:

nauseous when I see some colour combos, and it affects me viscerally.

Mia Hobbs:

kind of mathematical formula of why. Because I think sometimes I

Mia Hobbs:

probably have looked at a colourwork sweater and thought,

Mia Hobbs:

"Ooh I'm not sure..." You know, you look on Ravelry and see lots

Mia Hobbs:

of versions of the same sweater for inspiration, and then think,

Mia Hobbs:

"Ooh, not that one." But I would just feel like it was my spidey

Mia Hobbs:

senses or something. I wouldn't be able to put science on it,

Mia Hobbs:

but that must be great!

Milli Abrams:

Yeah, it is great! But there's also... Angela was

Milli Abrams:

always very "You mustn't put this colour with this colour."

Milli Abrams:

And yes, there is that, but I also really love to have a

Milli Abrams:

disrupter in there somewhere, so long as it's the right type of

Milli Abrams:

disrupter. You don't want something that was lovely and

Milli Abrams:

energetic, and then had a weird sort of drab colour in there

Milli Abrams:

that just made it all fall apart. That's not the right

Milli Abrams:

disrupter. But if you had something that was a whole bunch

Milli Abrams:

of, say, neutrals with a pastel or something, and then you

Milli Abrams:

chucked in one disruptive colour that just gave that piece a lot

Milli Abrams:

of energy, that's my favourite sort of thing to do.

Mia Hobbs:

Do you know, my mum says that about... she's like,

Mia Hobbs:

"You need one (she'll call it) ugly colour in there, to make

Mia Hobbs:

the others look great." [Laughs] But she's great with colour.

Mia Hobbs:

She's so good and confident from just, I don't know, natural

Mia Hobbs:

ability and being artistic.

Milli Abrams:

Yeah! And years of practice.

Mia Hobbs:

Yeah. But she's really good at experimenting and

Mia Hobbs:

seeing what works, and changing it if it doesn't.

Milli Abrams:

And that's the other thing: you've got to be

Milli Abrams:

willing to change it if it doesn't work and to make the

Milli Abrams:

mistakes. And if you want to get good at it, you've just got

Milli Abrams:

to keep practising and be open to your own feedback and realise

Milli Abrams:

when actually no, that's not good.

Mia Hobbs:

Do you think you've always been so good at ripping

Mia Hobbs:

out? Or tolerant of it? Because I think I've definitely got

Mia Hobbs:

better over time, and now other people are much more traumatised

Mia Hobbs:

watching me do it than I feel about doing it.

Milli Abrams:

Oh yeah. Darren used to be horrified that I used

Milli Abrams:

to finish a whole thing and then find one thing at the beginning

Milli Abrams:

where I would wish I'd stuck a colour in or something, and I'd

Milli Abrams:

rip it all back. But yeah, I've always been totally fine because

Milli Abrams:

I'm a process knitter and I don't really care about the

Milli Abrams:

final knitted thing to own or wear. It's the process. The only

Milli Abrams:

thing that really traumatises me, I'd say, (if it's trauma) is

Milli Abrams:

I'm terrible about cutting... you know where it says "break

Milli Abrams:

yarn". I know that I will very often go back and rip things

Milli Abrams:

out, so I beat myself up over cutting a yarn where I probably

Milli Abrams:

shouldn't have cut it, and I should have left it attached to

Mia Hobbs:

Because the ends are worse, aren't they, for that? If

Mia Hobbs:

the ball because I almost definitely always go back. I

Mia Hobbs:

don't like ends. I just don't like too many ends. I've knit

Mia Hobbs:

with silks and cottons so much that ends are a little bit of a

Mia Hobbs:

trauma to me.

Mia Hobbs:

it was a sheep's wool, we could spit splice it.

Milli Abrams:

Exactly. I don't mind cutting those. I'm awful at

Milli Abrams:

having these projects with loads of balls attached because I

Milli Abrams:

refuse to cut anything until it's done. [Laughs]

Mia Hobbs:

I would love to ask about a significant knitting

Mia Hobbs:

project for you. It could be something that feels significant

Mia Hobbs:

in your journey with knitting or for your life.

Milli Abrams:

That's a good question. I think for a long

Milli Abrams:

time, it would have been the blanket that I made for Indy

Milli Abrams:

when I was pregnant. That was very personal to him. But I

Milli Abrams:

couldn't even tell you where that is now. We might have lost

Milli Abrams:

it in the hurricane, I don't know. I make a conscious effort

Milli Abrams:

to not be attached to anything physical, so I try not to get

Milli Abrams:

really, really attached to the actual thing. But in terms of

Milli Abrams:

the process...

Mia Hobbs:

Even just the process of being somewhere significant

Mia Hobbs:

at a time in your life while you made it.

Milli Abrams:

Yeah, definitely the pregnancy ones. I mean, I

Milli Abrams:

like some projects where you've designed it yourself. I guess it

Milli Abrams:

means a lot more than when I'm knitting off another pattern.

Milli Abrams:

And normally, that's because I've knit it like 7, 8, 9 times

Milli Abrams:

and ripped it back and knit it again just to get it right. So

Milli Abrams:

you spend a lot of time with it and you're a bit more invested

Milli Abrams:

in those projects. I've never knit anything for Darren so I

Milli Abrams:

can't say that it's anything massively significant that I've

Milli Abrams:

made for family that they hugely appreciate. I knit a hat for my

Milli Abrams:

granddad a couple of years ago for Christmas that made him

Milli Abrams:

throw up immediately. It was terrible! A beautiful cashmere

Milli Abrams:

hat but he overheated straightaway because he couldn't

Milli Abrams:

take it off! And then he threw up. So I remember that one!

Mia Hobbs:

Oh no! Lots of people have spoken about things they've

Mia Hobbs:

made in significant times, like for example grief has come up

Mia Hobbs:

very often. I think for me, it's often like... I don't know, the

Mia Hobbs:

first time I needed a sweater and actually made something that

Mia Hobbs:

fitted me. You know, I knitted a lot of non-gauge-determined

Mia Hobbs:

items at the beginning like shawls and maybe a hat but

Mia Hobbs:

they're kind of stretchy and more forgiving than a sweater.

Milli Abrams:

Yeah, I can't even remember the last time I made a

Milli Abrams:

sweater, or the first time I made a sweater that fit. I don't

Milli Abrams:

think I ever tried to make sweaters that really fit. I

Milli Abrams:

haven't really tried to do that until I had the shop and I was

Milli Abrams:

leading knit-alongs and things, and I had to teach other people

Milli Abrams:

that wanted to keep their knits for some reason [laughs] how to

Milli Abrams:

make it fit.

Mia Hobbs:

Have you not kept even sweaters for yourself?

Milli Abrams:

No, I don't keep them. They're all shop samples.

Milli Abrams:

I get to wear them, so I'll wear them home or they might sit in

Milli Abrams:

my wardrobe for a weekend when I'm at home and then I'll wash

Milli Abrams:

them and take them back to the shop and they'll be a shop

Milli Abrams:

sample. I don't tend to have my own. Everything really belongs

Milli Abrams:

to the shop and then I borrow them.

Mia Hobbs:

So you've got a never-ending stream of new

Mia Hobbs:

things to wear for a weekend!

Milli Abrams:

I have, yeah! As long as I'm organised enough to

Milli Abrams:

remember to take it home from the shop that night, which is

Milli Abrams:

great for the shawls and things for some of them are quite

Milli Abrams:

dressy. So yeah, I've got like a big tickle trunk of possible

Milli Abrams:

knits at the shop that I can borrow whenever I want to. But

Milli Abrams:

we've recently moved to a boat, and again, I don't have very

Milli Abrams:

much wardrobe space. So yes, I just use the shop as a wardrobe

Milli Abrams:

space.

Mia Hobbs:

Perfect! And you can keep on knitting. You don't have

Mia Hobbs:

to feel guilty when your wardrobe is full!

Milli Abrams:

Yeah! And in Canada, whenever I knit, I used

Milli Abrams:

to give all the stuff to my mates and then I'd borrow it

Milli Abrams:

back when I was like, "Oh, I really want the... you know".

Milli Abrams:

And we all lived fairly close to one another, so I'd just nip by

Milli Abrams:

and grab that jumper back for whatever reason. And we sort of

Milli Abrams:

just shared all my knits, I suppose. I just never kept them

Milli Abrams:

at our home. So yeah, I like that about knitting.

Mia Hobbs:

Does it bother you if people don't... Some people I've

Mia Hobbs:

spoken to have said, "There's certain people I WOULD knit for

Mia Hobbs:

because they kind of get it" like a) how many hours went into

Mia Hobbs:

that; b) how to look after it properly if it's wool or

Mia Hobbs:

something like that, don't just felt it the first time you wash

Mia Hobbs:

it. [Laughs] Does that bother you or will you literally set

Mia Hobbs:

them free into the world and don't think about them again?

Milli Abrams:

I won't make something for someone that's

Milli Abrams:

asked for something, if they don't know what it is they're

Milli Abrams:

asking for. And people are always asking, and I'll get

Milli Abrams:

messages on Instagram or whatever from friend, "Can you

Milli Abrams:

make my wife one of those or whatever?" And I'll be like,

Milli Abrams:

"No. I mean, I could but it's going to cost you £600. That's

Milli Abrams:

my time."

Mia Hobbs:

Well, that's cheap! You've not given yourself a

Mia Hobbs:

decent hourly rate, Milli! [Laughs]

Milli Abrams:

Well, that is cheap! [Laughs]

Mia Hobbs:

And the yarn!

Milli Abrams:

So no, I don't make stuff for people that don't

Milli Abrams:

get it. If they really get it and they really want it, then

Milli Abrams:

absolutely, I'll make it for them. And if I know that they're

Milli Abrams:

not going to look after it, and they've asked for it, then they

Milli Abrams:

won't get it. But generally, if it's something that I was making

Milli Abrams:

anyway, and someone's said that they'd quite like it, then they

Milli Abrams:

can have it and there's no questions asked. I will mention

Milli Abrams:

to them that they shouldn't chuck it in the washing machine

Milli Abrams:

or they won't be able to wear it very much. But then if it's

Milli Abrams:

theirs, and it's gone, I don't even think about it again I

Milli Abrams:

think. You know, after it's gone, it's gone.

Mia Hobbs:

Do you knit quite fast?

Milli Abrams:

Very fast. Yeah, I'm extremely fast. Recently

Milli Abrams:

we've had people in the shop... Because I've not been on the

Milli Abrams:

shop floor as much, I've been back in the office or downstairs

Milli Abrams:

in the back or wherever, and I've heard people say (or the

Milli Abrams:

girls have said that another person said) "Does Milli really

Milli Abrams:

knit all those knits or does she have like an army of minions in

Milli Abrams:

the background making the stuff?" I knit all my knits

Milli Abrams:

myself. It's important for me to experience all of the yarn

Milli Abrams:

myself, but I am very fast. And I'm small, so I make the smaller

Milli Abrams:

size [laughs] which really helps!

Mia Hobbs:

But don't you seem from Instagram to have produced

Mia Hobbs:

knits that look great on a whole number of family members as

Mia Hobbs:

well?

Milli Abrams:

The shawls! The shawls fit everyone.

Mia Hobbs:

Are they all shawls? Have I not seen sweaters on Indy

Milli Abrams:

Oh I do do that! I do make my son wear... yeah, I

Milli Abrams:

or...?

Milli Abrams:

mean, they are small for him. He didn't go out wearing them.

Mia Hobbs:

He's very tolerant of it!

Milli Abrams:

Oh he's amazing. He'll do whatever I ask him to

Milli Abrams:

do. He doesn't really care what anyone thinks. He'll just do

Milli Abrams:

whatever he wants. But I will quite often put it on him

Milli Abrams:

because I want to see what the shoulders or the neckline might

Milli Abrams:

look like on a man, or how it'll fit if you haven't got boobs, or

Milli Abrams:

what that colour might look like on someone else, or does a very

Milli Abrams:

soft mohair look alright on a bloke that's got a beard, that

Milli Abrams:

kind of thing. So yeah, I will make the family try... you know,

Milli Abrams:

my dad will try on a lot of my stuff. My dad loves trying

Milli Abrams:

things on for me and he quite often gets them. He's got loads

Milli Abrams:

of my knits in his wardrobe, but I never see him actually wear

Milli Abrams:

them after the first time. So I should really take them back

Milli Abrams:

[laughs] and give them to someone else. But they are

Milli Abrams:

small. I do knit oversize arms. I like really long arms. Maybe

Milli Abrams:

that's why they get away with it.

Mia Hobbs:

You like to wear them?

Milli Abrams:

I like to wear overly long sleeves.

Mia Hobbs:

I always end with asking: what's the greatest gift

Mia Hobbs:

that knitting has given you for the rest of your life?

Milli Abrams:

It's very important. I think it's probably

Milli Abrams:

added several years to my life.

Milli Abrams:

Just in the calming and, you know, not being

Mia Hobbs:

In what way specifically, do you think?

Mia Hobbs:

frazzled and stressed and giving myself a stress-induced disease,

Mia Hobbs:

I think. All that time where people think it's wasted,

Mia Hobbs:

knitting, it's probably not. It's probably adding that much

Mia Hobbs:

time and then some at the end of your life, you know? It's not a

Mia Hobbs:

waste of time. And I think the biggest, biggest gift is that it

Mia Hobbs:

makes me a much easier person to be around and to live with for

Mia Hobbs:

my family, because I'm not totally frazzled all the time if

Mia Hobbs:

I've got my knitting. And they get some downtime from me. I'm

Mia Hobbs:

very A Type. I'm always needing things to do because I can't sit

Mia Hobbs:

still. But it gives them a break to just sit and chill when they

Mia Hobbs:

know that I'm not going to bother them because I'm in my knitting.

Mia Hobbs:

So it does sound like it really has a regulating kind

Mia Hobbs:

of function for you.

Milli Abrams:

Massively. And I notice it very much if I have

Milli Abrams:

not picked up my needles that day or for a couple of days. I

Milli Abrams:

feel like I really need some time, and I'm just going to grab

Milli Abrams:

my needles and just be.

Mia Hobbs:

Yeah. I feel like I can feel it physically as well,

Mia Hobbs:

that I need to kind of have... My grandma used to slightly

Mia Hobbs:

sneakily still smoke and think we didn't know about it.

Mia Hobbs:

[Laughs] It was almost like after she'd eaten her dinner,

Mia Hobbs:

she'd get a bit agitated and feel like she needed to smoke.

Mia Hobbs:

And I've felt exactly the same about my knitting.

Milli Abrams:

Absolutely. There's times where you just

Milli Abrams:

feel a bit antsy and a bit up, and you're just like, "Right,

Milli Abrams:

let's just go sit over there, grab some knitting and just calm

Milli Abrams:

down for a while." So I think that's the greatest, greatest

Milli Abrams:

gift, that you've got a tool that allows you to have instant

Milli Abrams:

stress relief, and you can take it anywhere you go, and it makes

Milli Abrams:

a lot of the more stressful times in your life, like sitting

Milli Abrams:

in traffic (not when you're driving, obviously) or waiting

Milli Abrams:

for something where you can just get more and more riled up. It

Milli Abrams:

makes those times the complete opposite of what they would have

Milli Abrams:

been, which I think is huge. I don't know how people cope! I

Milli Abrams:

don't know how people live that don't have the knitting.

Mia Hobbs:

I did end up doing a lot of waiting for hospital

Mia Hobbs:

appointments a few years ago, sometimes three hours in this

Mia Hobbs:

particular department that I had to go back to a couple of times,

Mia Hobbs:

and everybody else had their phones and they'd by the end run

Mia Hobbs:

out of phone battery. And I was knitting and I thought, "Next

Mia Hobbs:

time I come here, if I have to come back, I'm bringing extra

Mia Hobbs:

yarn and needles!" because there were people who were then

Mia Hobbs:

striking up conversation about my knitting, because I was the

Mia Hobbs:

only one doing anything other than on their phone, which I

Mia Hobbs:

think makes people look unapproachable, I guess, if

Mia Hobbs:

they're looking down at a phone. And they were asking me about

Mia Hobbs:

it. And I felt so lucky!

Milli Abrams:

Well, because the other thing that makes you more

Milli Abrams:

approachable, I think, as a knitter and as a social knitter,

Milli Abrams:

if you're someone that has anxiety about social settings

Milli Abrams:

and new people, is that when you've got your knitting you can

Milli Abrams:

have a really good mix of eye contact with people and then an

Milli Abrams:

excuse to break your eye contact in a non-awkward way. So you've

Milli Abrams:

always got your knitting that you can look down at, but you

Milli Abrams:

can also look up and maintain decent eye contact. There's no

Milli Abrams:

pressure or awkward social pressure to keep looking at the

Milli Abrams:

person that you're interacting with. So I think that's also why

Milli Abrams:

a lot of people that have that awkwardness, it's good for them

Milli Abrams:

when they've got their knitting and they feel like they can

Milli Abrams:

approach you more, because you haven't got to be that intense

Milli Abrams:

with them because you're already doing something. And it's not

Milli Abrams:

like, you know, when you're reading a book, you don't want

Milli Abrams:

to approach that person because they've got to be looking at

Milli Abrams:

their book to continue what they're doing. But you can talk

Milli Abrams:

to someone that's knitting.

Mia Hobbs:

And I certainly find my concentration... I have a

Mia Hobbs:

very flighty concentration span, I suppose. Like if I'm sitting

Mia Hobbs:

in a busy waiting room, I wouldn't be able to really focus

Mia Hobbs:

on a book, I don't think, or on a bus. Whereas I totally could

Mia Hobbs:

knit. But I wouldn't have enough focus to just read, I don't

Mia Hobbs:

think.

Milli Abrams:

Yeah, I'm either not into the book enough, and

Milli Abrams:

I'm not focused because I'm concentrating on other stuff and

Milli Abrams:

have to listen for my stop, or I'm so into my book that I'm

Milli Abrams:

going to miss my stop. But when I used to get on my little bus

Milli Abrams:

in the Caribbean, that took me down to a boat, that was fine. I

Milli Abrams:

could read because everyone else on the bus would tell me when it

Milli Abrams:

was time to get off at the next stop! [Laughs] And that's fine.

Milli Abrams:

I used to really get into a book then. But that's...

Mia Hobbs:

That's not going to happen in London. [Laughs]

Milli Abrams:

I mean, I guess you could ask the person next to

Milli Abrams:

you, "Can you just tap me when it's such-and-such stop?" But we

Milli Abrams:

don't do that, do we?

Mia Hobbs:

No, we don't. We should be more Caribbean in our

Mia Hobbs:

attitude! You wouldn't see the same people every day, that's

Mia Hobbs:

for sure.

Milli Abrams:

No, no.

Mia Hobbs:

Interesting that you said the more senior you got,

Mia Hobbs:

the more possible it felt to knit during meetings to help you

Mia Hobbs:

concentrate. And certainly I've found that as well. But now I

Mia Hobbs:

feel like I have more confidence. And I think it's

Mia Hobbs:

helps that some stuff is over Zoom. I just don't believe

Mia Hobbs:

humans are designed to sit down and do a six hour training

Mia Hobbs:

course and not move!

Milli Abrams:

No! Not at all.

Mia Hobbs:

And I feel like if I knit, it's the perfect level of:

Mia Hobbs:

my hands are busy and my brain is available for concentrating.

Mia Hobbs:

Whereas if I wasn't doing that, I feel like my brain might

Mia Hobbs:

freelance onto something even more distracting, and then

Mia Hobbs:

actually draw my concentration away from what I'm supposed to

Mia Hobbs:

be focusing on.

Milli Abrams:

It's like doodling, isn't it? It's like a

Milli Abrams:

form of doodling. But you end up with an actual 3D possibly

Milli Abrams:

useful thing at the end of it.

Mia Hobbs:

You described yourself as a Type A person. How

Mia Hobbs:

much does having something tangible that you've created add

Mia Hobbs:

to the appeal of knitting? You said you like to finish things.

Mia Hobbs:

Do you get a certain sense of achievement from... I guess lots

Mia Hobbs:

of the things we do are on a screen and you can't really see

Mia Hobbs:

your progress. You've done a day's work, but it's not really

Mia Hobbs:

visible. Whereas with knitting you have a thing you can show

Mia Hobbs:

and feel and touch.

Milli Abrams:

You have a thing, yeah. And there's a beginning

Milli Abrams:

and an end. I think, for me, that's more important than

Milli Abrams:

actually having the thing, because I don't ever really want

Milli Abrams:

the thing. But I like that there's a finite end to a thing

Milli Abrams:

and you can finish an actual project and it's gone. I think,

Milli Abrams:

in my experience with knitting and all the people around me

Milli Abrams:

that knit, it seems to be a more male need, maybe, or more

Milli Abrams:

important from an actual creating point of view and

Milli Abrams:

having a thing that you've sculpted and made. That seems to

Milli Abrams:

make the boys... I've noticed that they have a lot more

Milli Abrams:

satisfaction about having the final piece, about the creation.

Milli Abrams:

I mean, women do too but it's very much more noticeable with

Milli Abrams:

guys - that they've got like a thing that they've made. For me,

Milli Abrams:

it's more the beginning of it. I genuinely get the same pleasure

Milli Abrams:

out of a really great spreadsheet. [Laughs] I love a

Milli Abrams:

spreadsheet! Whenever I've got one that I've 'birthed', and

Milli Abrams:

then it's finished and it's magnificent, then I love that

Milli Abrams:

too. And that's not a tangible thing, so I know that for me it

Milli Abrams:

doesn't have to be something I can hold. But I like that

Milli Abrams:

there's an ending.

Mia Hobbs:

I think one of the things we talk about, like when

Mia Hobbs:

we're using knitting for people who are maybe struggling with

Mia Hobbs:

low mood or something, we talk about having two types of tasks

that are helpful:

something that's intrinsically enjoyable,

that are helpful:

and something that gives you a sense of achievement. So even if

that are helpful:

I tidied my desk or my workspace, that might not be fun

that are helpful:

for me but I could look at it and think, "Oh, well done me. I

that are helpful:

did that." But I guess knitting gives you both, and it's harder

that are helpful:

to deny progress if you can see it and hold it in your hand.

Milli Abrams:

Yeah! And a new learned technique. That's hugely

Milli Abrams:

satisfying, when you're learning something a lot of the time, or

Mia Hobbs:

So you're someone who likes the uncharted new

Mia Hobbs:

you're coming across a new colour combo. Do you know, one

Mia Hobbs:

of the really cool things in the shop is when we willl get a

Mia Hobbs:

bunch of customers and someone will put a yarn down on the

Mia Hobbs:

counter that they want, and someone else puts another yarn

Mia Hobbs:

down on the counter, and they happen to be next to each other

Mia Hobbs:

and you just think, "Wow! I never would have put those

Mia Hobbs:

territory, aren't you? In the colour combos, but also in the

Mia Hobbs:

colours together, but wow!" I love that.

Mia Hobbs:

techniques. That's a driver for you.

Milli Abrams:

The learning, yeah, and I think that's really

Milli Abrams:

important as well. There's different types of people.

Milli Abrams:

There's some people that are the perfectionists and they have to

Milli Abrams:

get it right, and they need the finished article, and that's

Milli Abrams:

where they derive their sense of achievement and enjoyment. And

Milli Abrams:

there's others that are process driven, like me, and then

Milli Abrams:

there's people where we just want to constantly be changing

Milli Abrams:

and learning and moving and that's who I am. And I think

Milli Abrams:

it's really good for... don't they say it's great for

Milli Abrams:

cognitive function and the ageing brain, if you can keep

Milli Abrams:

learning and keep introducing new skills and rebuilding in all

Milli Abrams:

those pathways.

Mia Hobbs:

Yeah! And I guess if you think about your past, you

Mia Hobbs:

didn't get to be... was it CFO?... and work with Richard

Mia Hobbs:

Branson, unless you were a high-achieving, ambitious

Mia Hobbs:

person. And I guess all of that drive is in you somewhere, and

Mia Hobbs:

it's going in your knitting and learning new techniques.

Milli Abrams:

Yeah, there is that but also, as an accountant,

Milli Abrams:

I'm the very outside of the box... you know, creative... I'm

Milli Abrams:

not a creative accountant in the bad sense, but I am an outside

Milli Abrams:

the box accountant that is driven... I'll look at different

Milli Abrams:

things with performance, and holistically as a business as a

Milli Abrams:

whole. So my style of accounting really worked for him in that

Milli Abrams:

business, and the way that I will lead a team is like that.

Milli Abrams:

And it is also the way that I approach my knitting. Whereas

Milli Abrams:

Darren, my husband, is an accountant but he's a much more

Milli Abrams:

detail-driven in-the-weeds accountant, and he doesn't have

Milli Abrams:

an interest in knitting things and wouldn't know where to start

Milli Abrams:

with creating a project or chucking colours together,

Milli Abrams:

because that's not who he is. Actually it would stress him

Milli Abrams:

out. I sometimes say, "What do you think of this colour and

Milli Abrams:

this colour?" and he's just like, "What?! I don't even..."

Mia Hobbs:

But that creativity is a driver for you?

Milli Abrams:

Yeah, the creativity's a driver for me but

Milli Abrams:

I recognise that with some people, unless they've got the

Milli Abrams:

formula and the pattern and it's written out, and the

Milli Abrams:

predictability of how the colours will work, they'll get

Milli Abrams:

really stressed out about it. But once that bit is taken care

Milli Abrams:

of, then they find it equally enjoyable to sit and knit.

Mia Hobbs:

And actually, that's amazing, isn't it? That knitting

Mia Hobbs:

could be a great task for both different types of people with

Mia Hobbs:

very different... cognitive needs, we could call it, I

Mia Hobbs:

suppose. The fact that you can get your needs met in your way,

Mia Hobbs:

being more creative.

Milli Abrams:

Yeah, so that's very interesting. And that's why

Milli Abrams:

I think that it's so good at bringing together all the

Milli Abrams:

different types of people. You don't have to be a particular

Milli Abrams:

type of person to enjoy knitting; you can pretty much be

Milli Abrams:

any background and any type and your brain can work in any way.

Milli Abrams:

You could be someone that has to be predictable and methodical,

Milli Abrams:

or someone that likes the chaos like I do. Actually, I like the

Milli Abrams:

chaos but then I really like the order and the maths side of

Milli Abrams:

knitting. So yeah, it all works.

Mia Hobbs:

You're running Knit Nites, aren't you, at Tribe?

Milli Abrams:

Yeah. At the minute they're virtual.

Mia Hobbs:

But they were in person for a while, weren't

Mia Hobbs:

they?

Milli Abrams:

They were.

Mia Hobbs:

Is there anything that surprises you about the

Mia Hobbs:

conversations that come up, that feels different about the kind

Mia Hobbs:

of conversations people have while their knitting, compared

Mia Hobbs:

to if people were in a pub or a restaurant or...?

Milli Abrams:

I mean, we talk a lot more about yarns and

Milli Abrams:

patterns and things! [Laughs]

Mia Hobbs:

Yeah sure. I guess many of the people don't know

Mia Hobbs:

each other? Or do they? Before they come?

Milli Abrams:

Yeah. It's a lot easier to sit in a group when

Milli Abrams:

you've got your knitting, than say if you're all sat there in a

Milli Abrams:

circle with nothing but each other! And we get new people all

Milli Abrams:

the time. Every week we've got at least one new person, and

Milli Abrams:

that's great. We've all got something that unites us all,

Milli Abrams:

but we all recognise that we're extremely different. And on our

Milli Abrams:

virtual Knit Nites we're global. We're all over the world. We've

Milli Abrams:

got people in Finland and Australia and the States and

Milli Abrams:

Portugal and from all over the place in different time zones on

Milli Abrams:

this one call, and that's nice. We're all knitting very

Milli Abrams:

different things in different colours, and we can all

Milli Abrams:

appreciate what the other person's making.

Mia Hobbs:

I think that's another thing, you know, you

Mia Hobbs:

were talking about the idea of being able to regulate your eye

Mia Hobbs:

contact when you're knitting. I guess the other thing is you do

Mia Hobbs:

just have an automatic topic of conversation, even with

Mia Hobbs:

non-knitters when they talk to you on a bus or something. It's

Mia Hobbs:

in a way less awkward. They can ask you about your knitting

Mia Hobbs:

or...

Milli Abrams:

It's like having a cute baby. I mean that's when

Milli Abrams:

you've always got people that will come and talk to you if

Milli Abrams:

you've got a cute dog or a baby.

Mia Hobbs:

Yes, this is true. [Laughs]

Milli Abrams:

It is kind of like that. For ages we were thought

Milli Abrams:

of as really weird. I was a closet knitter for a very long

Milli Abrams:

time in my childhood, because it was not cool to be knitting. You

Milli Abrams:

didn't tell anyone that you did it. But it is cool now! It's

Milli Abrams:

kind of fine. It's a little bit fringe, but it's fine.

Mia Hobbs:

Yeah, I was certainly... I mean I didn't

Mia Hobbs:

always knit. Sometimes I was doing other things like cross

Mia Hobbs:

stitch, and I don't think I realised how much I needed it

Mia Hobbs:

for my mental wellbeing. But I would always get my revision

Mia Hobbs:

done quite early, and then the night before exams I'd be

Mia Hobbs:

secretly in my bedroom cross stitching. Because obviously, if

Mia Hobbs:

you did that openly, people would be annoyed at you that

Mia Hobbs:

you'd finished revising, but I just get to the point where I'm

Mia Hobbs:

done. Psychologically, I can't cram any more into this brain.

Mia Hobbs:

Now I'm doing something else. But I feel like it almost opened

Mia Hobbs:

a different trapdoor in my mind, that doing something rhythmical

Mia Hobbs:

with my hands allowed the revision to percolate in a way,

Mia Hobbs:

I felt.

Milli Abrams:

Yeah, definitely. And it was a reward for me as

Milli Abrams:

well. I'd get a whole bunch of revision done, and then allow

Milli Abrams:

myself to go knit a few more line, because it was just so

Milli Abrams:

good. I know some people would reward themselves with cake or a

Milli Abrams:

cigarette or something, but knitting's a super healthy way

Milli Abrams:

of rewarding yourself, I guess, with hindsight.

Mia Hobbs:

I relearnt, actually. My mum insisted I learnt when I

Mia Hobbs:

started my doctorate in Clinical Psychology, because she thought

Mia Hobbs:

it was a good thing to do. And it did turn out to be the

Mia Hobbs:

perfect thing for revision breaks. I was knitting a big

Mia Hobbs:

shawl, so they had rows, and you could do a row or two rows, and

Mia Hobbs:

then there's a finite end to your break. And then you go back

Mia Hobbs:

to the books.

Milli Abrams:

Yeah. You do have to be disciplined enough to say,

Milli Abrams:

"I'm not going to just do one more row."

Mia Hobbs:

Or when you're knitting in the round, it's even

Mia Hobbs:

harder. [Laughs] The rows are less finite. Well, Milli, it has

Mia Hobbs:

been an absolute pleasure to talk to you. Thank you so much

Mia Hobbs:

for joining me on the podcast. If people want to find out more

Mia Hobbs:

about you or Tribe, how would they find out more?

Milli Abrams:

Probably through the Tribe Yarns website:

Milli Abrams:

www.tribeyarns.com. And then I do send out a newsletter, which

Milli Abrams:

tends to be long and has a lot in it, but I only do that once

Milli Abrams:

every month or every six weeks. I'm not very good at sending

Milli Abrams:

that more often than that. So subscribe to the newsletter. And

Milli Abrams:

follow me on Instagram @tribeyarnslife where there's

Milli Abrams:

always lots of pictures of me and my family.

Mia Hobbs:

In beautiful Richmond!

Mia Hobbs:

Thank you so much for listening to the Why I Knit podcast. If

Mia Hobbs:

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Mia Hobbs:

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