It was an absolute pleasure to speak to Milli about her relationship with knitting. Right now she is the owner of Tribe Yarns, a yarn shop in Richmond-upon-Thames in London but she has also circumnavigated the globe on a yacht with her family and worked with Richard Branson as his CFO. Knitting has been a constant through all her adventures.
Milli also has a qualification in Applied Colour Psychology, and I really enjoyed learning about the theory behind how different colours can impact our mood and energy levels. Since experiencing Hurricane Irma, Milli tries not to become attached to material possessions, so she is also the ultimate process knitter! She is not afraid of ripping back to make something exactly the way she wants it, Milli rarely keeps her own knits, and never knits the same thing twice…..this includes socks!
You can see the full transcript for this episode on the blog.
You can follow Milli on Instagram at @tribeyarnslife
Website: Tribe Yarns
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Transcript
Hello, and welcome back to series two of the Why I
Mia Hobbs:Knit podcast. My name is Dr. Mia Hobbs and I'm a clinical
Mia Hobbs:psychologist who's passionate about knitting and its benefits
Mia Hobbs:for our mental wellbeing. Each episode I interview a different
Mia Hobbs:knitter about why they knit and how it benefits their mental
Mia Hobbs:health. This week on the podcast, I'm joined by Milli
Mia Hobbs:Abrams, who is the owner of Tribe Yarns, a yarn shop in
Mia Hobbs:Richmond, London. Milli has a qualification in Applied Colour
Mia Hobbs:Psychology so I particularly wanted to ask her more about
Mia Hobbs:this and about how colour can impact on mental health.
Mia Hobbs:Unfortunately, there is a crackle on Milli's end of the
Mia Hobbs:audio, which we were unable to resolve while we were recording.
Mia Hobbs:However, Milli is such an inspiring and interesting guest
Mia Hobbs:that I'm sure you'll still really enjoy this interview.
Mia Hobbs:Hi Milli, welcome to the podcast.
Milli Abrams:Hello.
Mia Hobbs:I always start by asking where your story with
Mia Hobbs:knitting began.
Milli Abrams:Okay, that's a relatively easy one, I guess. I
Milli Abrams:was about six or seven years old when I started knitting. My mum
Milli Abrams:used to knit and she introduced it to me over a summer holiday
Milli Abrams:and I pretty much got addicted straightaway. And I was the sort
Milli Abrams:of child that never really sat down. You know, I was always a
Milli Abrams:bit ants-in-my-pants, climbing trees and that kind of thing.
Milli Abrams:And so I guess it was as much of a surprise to her as it was to
Milli Abrams:me that I loved it. And I got obsessed and I ended up blowing
Milli Abrams:out all of my playdates with friends outside. I was like,
Milli Abrams:"No, I'm at home knitting." I was determined to get it done.
Mia Hobbs:Oh wow! So you absolutely went with it straight
Mia Hobbs:away.
Milli Abrams:Yes, straight away. And to begin with, at
Milli Abrams:least for the first year, I don't think I could purl at all.
Milli Abrams:I could only knit. But I really liked stocking stitch. So I
Milli Abrams:would knit a whole line and then I'd give it to my mom to purl
Milli Abrams:back. [Laughs] I did eventually get the hang of purling but I
Milli Abrams:could only do it then for the next little while standing up at
Milli Abrams:the ironing board, for some reason. I was using crappy
Milli Abrams:straight needles back then. You know how we had those awful sort
Milli Abrams:of Aero needles that weighed a little bit too much, I guess.
Milli Abrams:For my little hands they were quite long, with blunt tips. And
Milli Abrams:I used to knit way too tight, like really tightly. So I used
Milli Abrams:to have to use the ironing board to jam the needle into the
Milli Abrams:stitch.
Mia Hobbs:Oh wow! Yeah, I actually had one of the kids in
Mia Hobbs:the therapeutic knitting group I've been running say to me,
Mia Hobbs:"It's really surprising that grannies knit because you need
Mia Hobbs:so much strength to get this to fit!" . And I thought, "I think
Mia Hobbs:someone's going slightly wrong here, because I don't feel like
Mia Hobbs:I'm using muscles to knit, particularly!" [Laughs]
Milli Abrams:No! And then back then (that would have been in
Milli Abrams:the early 80s) we all knit with crappy acrylic wools, so it was
Milli Abrams:really strong.
Mia Hobbs:Oh yeah, it's hard to break. It's harder than wool.
Milli Abrams:Exactly. If I'd have started with a proper wool,
Milli Abrams:had I been knitting with the tightness and the strength that
Milli Abrams:I was applying to that acrylic, it would have broken right away,
Milli Abrams:and I would have realised that it was too tight. But I got away
Milli Abrams:with it back then.
Mia Hobbs:Okay. And what do you think hooked you in? Because it
Mia Hobbs:sounds like it was a bit of a surprise, if you were quite an
Mia Hobbs:active kid, that you could sit still and knit?
Milli Abrams:Yeah, it was definitely the challenge of it.
Milli Abrams:But I did feel it was very calming, the repetitive
Milli Abrams:stitches, and there was something about making and
Milli Abrams:creating, and then being able to make your own creative choices.
Milli Abrams:It was a bit like Lego, where you could sort of go your own
Milli Abrams:way with it, and you could spend hours and hours and hours doing
Milli Abrams:it and it just felt good. So yeah, I think it was that, and
Milli Abrams:then RIGHT away I started knitting colourwork and intarsia
Milli Abrams:and that kind of thing, because that was very early 80s.
Mia Hobbs:That's what I wondered: whether you were
Mia Hobbs:knitting from patterns or whether you were just kind of
Mia Hobbs:knitting scarves.
Milli Abrams:Both. No, I never did scarves in the beginning. I
Milli Abrams:just did lots of patches of things. And then I made stuff
Milli Abrams:for dolls, you know, just little things.
Mia Hobbs:Did you kind of make those up as you went along
Mia Hobbs:rather than finding a pattern for them?
Milli Abrams:A little bit, yeah. So I might have had a
Mia Hobbs:Yeah, sure. I guess a lot of us learn a lot of how to
Mia Hobbs:pattern that had a chart for some sort of fair isle motif and
Mia Hobbs:I would have just used that to make some random little thing
Mia Hobbs:for a doll or a teddy bear jumper or something. I didn't
Mia Hobbs:play with teddy bears or anything back then, but I just
Mia Hobbs:wanted to make little things. And I don't think I had enough
Mia Hobbs:yarn to make a big sweater. Then eventually my mum took me to
Mia Hobbs:John Lewis and we picked out a pattern, and that was the
Mia Hobbs:patchwork intarsia and fair isle cardigan. It was very
Mia Hobbs:complicated. But I decided I was going to make that. And then by
Mia Hobbs:the time I'd finished it, I could barely get it on. Because
Mia Hobbs:I was such a tight knitter, it was so small. [Laughs] And I
Mia Hobbs:hadn't appreciated that you had to leave a long enough end to
Mia Hobbs:darn the ends in. So they'd started to pull out, so I
Mia Hobbs:superglued them down, which made it really jabby inside. It was
Mia Hobbs:terrible! It's a horrible little thing. But my mum never knit
Mia Hobbs:intarsia or colourwork. She just used to do plain knitting and
Mia Hobbs:maybe a few cables. So she couldn't really advise me on
Mia Hobbs:that. That was a learning process!
Mia Hobbs:solve problems in knitting through trial and error.
Milli Abrams:Yeah, and back then there wasn't any social
Milli Abrams:media or any pressure like that. It's not as though we were
Milli Abrams:comparing ourselves to each other. And no-one I knew knit.
Milli Abrams:So it was perfectly fine for me to keep making all these
Milli Abrams:mistakes and not feel like a total failure. It was just
Milli Abrams:learning.
Mia Hobbs:But I think also now, if you knew what the mistake was
Mia Hobbs:called, you could search on YouTube as to how to fix it, I
Mia Hobbs:suppose. Like when I have a plumbing issue that I feel might
Mia Hobbs:be within my beginner's realm. So you know, a bit like that if
Mia Hobbs:you were a beginner knitter, whereas that didn't exist.
Milli Abrams:No. And I'd definitely say that there is so
Milli Abrams:much more help. You could Google everything now, with plumbing
Milli Abrams:and everything. And back then I think we did used to do a bit
Milli Abrams:more trial and error. It was either that or spend hours and
Milli Abrams:hours at the library researching something. We used to just try
Milli Abrams:it, didn't we? With lots of things.
Mia Hobbs:Okay, so did you carry on knitting? So you've
Mia Hobbs:knit fairly regularly since you were six or seven?
Milli Abrams:Yeah, so that would have been 40 years ago.
Milli Abrams:But no, I definitely had breaks. So there were the chaotic
Milli Abrams:teenage years when I had exams and things, when I just probably
Milli Abrams:wouldn't have had time. And yeah, there were times in my
Milli Abrams:life where I definitely let it go for maybe two or three years
Milli Abrams:at a time. And they were probably the times when I
Milli Abrams:shouldn't have let it go and should have made time. You know,
Milli Abrams:it's always the way, isn't it, when you feel like you haven't
Milli Abrams:got time to meditate, that's when you should be meditating.
Milli Abrams:It's the same with knitting. And then I picked it up again, like
Milli Abrams:PROPERLY properly, when I was pregnant with Indy. He's 18 now,
Milli Abrams:so that was 18 years ago. And knit every morning before I got
Milli Abrams:out of bed. I used to get morning sickness, so Darren
Milli Abrams:would bring me breakfast in bed every morning and I would sit
Milli Abrams:and knit while he was making breakfast.
Mia Hobbs:Were you knitting for Indy?
Milli Abrams:Yeah, I was knitting booties. Lots of
Milli Abrams:booties. I had this amazing book of like, I don't know, 100
Milli Abrams:bootie patterns, but it had lots of different techniques in it.
Mia Hobbs:Oh no! Have you gifted them?
Mia Hobbs:So I was learning something every day with a new knitting
Mia Hobbs:technique, and I was getting to use different colour yarns and
Mia Hobbs:different fibres. I had a whole bag of them and just worked my
Mia Hobbs:way through. I don't know how many booties I made. I must have
Mia Hobbs:made 30 or 40 pairs of different booties while I was pregnant
Mia Hobbs:with him, and I made a big patchwork blanket. But then when
Mia Hobbs:he was born, he had enormous feet and he didn't fit any of
Mia Hobbs:the booties.
Milli Abrams:I gifted all of them and they all fit normal
Milli Abrams:babies. Indy had giant feet! And only the giant duck feet fit
Milli Abrams:him. [Laughs]
Mia Hobbs:Aw! I found that I couldn't get booties to stay on
Mia Hobbs:my children!
Milli Abrams:No, they didn't all, which is kind of why I made
Milli Abrams:them all. Some of them were really good patterns that stayed
Milli Abrams:on and the others just were sort of there for photos, I suppose.
Mia Hobbs:Yeah. Oh, that's amazing. So it's been on and
Mia Hobbs:off, but mainly on, certainly on for the last 18 years.
Milli Abrams:Yeah. So when Indy was born, we then emigrated to
Milli Abrams:Canada when he was eight months old. And it was really cold
Milli Abrams:there, so I knit lots. And then when he was seven, we moved on
Milli Abrams:to the boat to go circumnavigate, and I did knit
Milli Abrams:on the boat as well. Probably not as much.... no maybe I did.
Milli Abrams:I did, but like different fibres. A lot of silk and cotton
Milli Abrams:because it's hot. And then we moved to the Caribbean for five
Milli Abrams:years, and I knit there as well, but lots of lace weight blankets
Milli Abrams:and that kind of thing.
Mia Hobbs:Okay. Did you feel like the motivation was less? Or
Mia Hobbs:is it not really so much about the final product?
Milli Abrams:It's never been about the final product for me.
Milli Abrams:It''s never ever been about the final product. I for my whole
Milli Abrams:life have knit things and then just given them away, almost
Milli Abrams:immediately. I don't tend to keep any of my knits for myself.
Mia Hobbs:Is it more for the process? Because obviously there
Mia Hobbs:is a joy to giving things to people for the point of giving a
Mia Hobbs:gift, that is more meaningful, but it sounds also a lot of it's
Mia Hobbs:about the process for you.
Milli Abrams:It's the process. It's completely the process,
Milli Abrams:yeah.
Mia Hobbs:If you were on a desert island with one ball of
Mia Hobbs:brown yarn that you had to re-knit over and over again,
Mia Hobbs:you'd be knitting it.
Milli Abrams:Absolutely. And I had to do that in the Caribbean
Milli Abrams:all the time, because we couldn't get anything shipped to
Milli Abrams:us. And it would take months and months. So I would just knit
Milli Abrams:something, rip it out, knit it again. I did that all the time.
Milli Abrams:So it is very much process.
Mia Hobbs:Yeah. And does it matter what you knit? As in the
Mia Hobbs:techniques? Is garter stitch equally valuable to knitting
Mia Hobbs:lace or cables? Or does it matter?
Milli Abrams:I think it depends. It's got to be
Milli Abrams:something new for me every time. So I very rarely, I think never,
Milli Abrams:make the second sock, because I've made the sock and I don't
Milli Abrams:want to make another one. So I almost never make the same thing
Milli Abrams:twice, unless I'm changing the technique or changing something
Milli Abrams:up about it. I recently knit two Badger & Bloom sweaters where I
Milli Abrams:changed the technique quite a lot both times, just to test it
Milli Abrams:out.
Mia Hobbs:And the colour isn't enough of a change?
Milli Abrams:No, it's not really. I knit for colour... A
Milli Abrams:lot of the time, it's because of the colour I want to hang out
Milli Abrams:with, so that will determine what I'm knitting. But it's got
Milli Abrams:to be something new that I haven't experienced before. It
Milli Abrams:might be that I have to experience a new fibre. Yeah, I
Milli Abrams:think it's technique more than anything, though. And it's
Milli Abrams:weird, after 40 years of doing lots of knitting and learning
Milli Abrams:all the [inaudible], I'm still discovering new techniques all
Milli Abrams:the time, which is brilliant. I think that's such a cool thing
Milli Abrams:about knitting.
Mia Hobbs:Yeah, you can't ever run out.
Milli Abrams:No, you can't really. And I do knit things
Milli Abrams:several times and rip them out, but I've just started a cardigan
Milli Abrams:yesterday which I will rip out today and start again, because
Milli Abrams:there's a couple of things I thought of during the night that
Milli Abrams:I should have done differently. So yeah, I'm fine with ripping
out. So about the gifting:yes, I do knit specifically for
out. So about the gifting:gifts, but no, usually I'm knitting something and then I
out. So about the gifting:think, "Oh, who'd like this? Who would this fit? Who wants it?".
Mia Hobbs:Okay. I'd love to hear more about colour, because
Mia Hobbs:I think you said you've got a qualification in colour...
Milli Abrams:Applied colour psychology.
Mia Hobbs:Applied colour psychology. So I'd love to hear
Mia Hobbs:about that, and your ideas about colour and how it benefits your
Mia Hobbs:mental wellbeing, being around colour. I like the idea of
Mia Hobbs:choosing a colour you want to hang out with! Because I think I
Mia Hobbs:do that with my knitting projects. I have quite a long
Mia Hobbs:relationship with them because I'm not that fast. [Laughs]
Milli Abrams:Colour is very, very important. I didn't know
Milli Abrams:anything about... I'm an accountant so it wasn't anything
Milli Abrams:that I'd studied in the early days, but I have an Indian
Milli Abrams:background so we've always been very experimentative with
Milli Abrams:colour, with our saris and things. And approaching my 40s,
Milli Abrams:I suppose... late 30s/40s... I got a bit frustrated with how
Milli Abrams:sensible people were being around colour and how coy they
Milli Abrams:Would you do that historically, as well, when you didn't work in
Milli Abrams:were, and how they were embarrassed about using certain
Milli Abrams:colours, and that kind of thing. If you walked down the high
Milli Abrams:street a couple of years ago, all you'd see was grey, khaki,
Milli Abrams:maybe a little bit of mustard. I couldn't buy the colours that I
Milli Abrams:wanted from a shop, so I did use knitting to introduce those
Milli Abrams:colours into my life. But I also realised a long time ago that
Milli Abrams:certain colours do certain things to my mood, and I can use
Milli Abrams:that to my advantage. So when I use really, really saturated
Milli Abrams:bright colours, they will wake me up, so I can use them in the
Milli Abrams:morning to just really get going, or before a meeting to
Milli Abrams:get energised, or something like that. Especially during
Milli Abrams:meetings. So I knit through all my board meetings and things. I
Milli Abrams:would always knit and I'd always pick a bright colour for that
Milli Abrams:because it just energised me.
Milli Abrams:yarn and knitting?
Milli Abrams:Yeah, absolutely.
Mia Hobbs:And I'm guessing you were the only person doing that!
Milli Abrams:Yeah, I was the only person knitting. And it was
Milli Abrams:fine. It wasn't fine, right at the beginning when I was a
Milli Abrams:junior. I'd get told off. But as I became more senior, I could
Milli Abrams:tell people that it actually helped me focus and they all got
Milli Abrams:used to it. So I'd sit in a meeting with Branson or whatever
Milli Abrams:and I'd always be knitting. But I also conversely couldn't pick
Milli Abrams:up those same colours and knit with them right before bed. I
Milli Abrams:always knit right before bed, but I can't knit the really
Milli Abrams:really bright colours under a fairly bright light because they
Milli Abrams:wake me up and they don't allow me to sort of gently ease down
Milli Abrams:at the end of the day.
Mia Hobbs:So you need more than one project on the go for
Mia Hobbs:different situations.
Milli Abrams:Yes. Different for colour but also different for
Milli Abrams:"Do I really want to escape into a very challenging pattern with
Milli Abrams:lots of charts and things because I need to just not think
Milli Abrams:about everything right now? Or do I just want something that is
Milli Abrams:in my hands, and TV knitting, so that I can listen to whatever
Milli Abrams:I'm listening to?"
Mia Hobbs:That's a really common theme that has come up
Mia Hobbs:again and again, and certainly something I relate very strongly
Mia Hobbs:to. The idea of having to have something complicated to absorb
Mia Hobbs:yourself in when you need to escape from real life, or
Mia Hobbs:something that you could knit while you're listening to your
Mia Hobbs:kids read, that doesn't require any of your brain. And I
Mia Hobbs:certainly would knit through Zoom meetings and training
Mia Hobbs:courses, and have never been anything other than the only
Mia Hobbs:knitter. [Laughs]
Milli Abrams:Yeah, it is weird, isn't it? I found when Indy was
Milli Abrams:little, you know, when your kids are little and you have to wait
Milli Abrams:all the time, you've got to wait for them to finish a sports
Milli Abrams:match or whatever, there's just a lot of waiting in life.
Milli Abrams:Waiting at the dentist and all these things. And I just found
Milli Abrams:that if I always had my knitting, I never really minded
Milli Abrams:the wait. Actually, I quite liked the wait. It was a really
Milli Abrams:good time for me to just get into my knitting. And I travel a
Milli Abrams:lot and airport delays were pleasurable, because I had my
Milli Abrams:knitting with me. And it just meant that I could chill out and
Milli Abrams:knit, and it didn't matter that the planes was delayed. I don't
Milli Abrams:know how people that don't knit cope, I honestly don't! I just
Milli Abrams:don't know how they manage to wait for anything.
Mia Hobbs:I do feel a slight anxiety, I think, if I have to
Mia Hobbs:do something like that, that I don't have my knitting with me
Mia Hobbs:because I've had too many things to think about and it's just not
Mia Hobbs:made it in the bag. But quite often, if I'm going away for a
Mia Hobbs:weekend and getting a train somewhere... The other weekend,
Mia Hobbs:I forgot the dress I was planning to wear out in the
Mia Hobbs:evening, but I had three knitting projects with me.
Mia Hobbs:[Laughs] Because that was my priority, in my head!
Milli Abrams:Definitely.
Mia Hobbs:I don't know whether you learnt about this in the
Mia Hobbs:course you did, about whether there are particular colours
Mia Hobbs:that are more associated with positive or negative mood, or
Mia Hobbs:whether it's not really like that. Whether different people
Mia Hobbs:have different...
Milli Abrams:Yeah, it's a really, really interesting
Milli Abrams:topic. And it's huge and very deep, so it would take hours to
Milli Abrams:go over everything. But I guess the main points were... I'm very
Milli Abrams:into maths, maths is my background, and there are
Milli Abrams:patterns and wavelengths behind each colour and some colours
Milli Abrams:harmonise because of the patterns and the waves, and some
Milli Abrams:colours don't. So that was one of the things that we learnt a
Milli Abrams:lot about. So, you know, I'm good at putting colours together
Milli Abrams:and I'm good at avoiding certain colour combinations that are
Milli Abrams:horrible. And I know that intuitively somewhat, I guess,
Milli Abrams:from practising a lot, but also because of the maths behind the
Milli Abrams:colour. So there's that. There's the colours that people should
Milli Abrams:and shouldn't wear... well, it's not really a should... it's the
Milli Abrams:colours that suit people more than the colours that don't. So
Milli Abrams:that was also part of the course. And that has more to do
Milli Abrams:with who you are and your personality, as well as your own
Milli Abrams:personal colouring, but a lot more to do with your
Milli Abrams:personality. And it's broken into four separate groups. So I
Milli Abrams:think recently, companies like House of Colour have taken those
Milli Abrams:and called them seasons to try and organise that a little bit
Milli Abrams:more. And that's fine. They've done it completely wrong in a
Milli Abrams:couple of ways, because they've tried to make it equal across
Milli Abrams:the seasons, which is not the case right now, but that's a
Milli Abrams:whole 'nother topic. So there's that, and then there's also the
Milli Abrams:behavioural aspect of how a colour will influence your mood
Milli Abrams:and why you might be drawn to it, and why you might not be
Milli Abrams:drawn to it at a particular time. So for example, if you had
Milli Abrams:an orange dining plate or were sitting in an orange room while
Milli Abrams:you were eating, you probably will eat more. You'll over eat.
Milli Abrams:It's just influence. It opens up your mind, and abundance and
Milli Abrams:that kind of thing. You just tend to over consume with
Milli Abrams:orange. Purple tends to be a colour that is for people that
Milli Abrams:are feeling a bit less sociable at that particular time, or very
Milli Abrams:much more choosy. It's a colour that people are drawn to when
Milli Abrams:they're hungover. It's not all shades of purple, but I'm
Milli Abrams:generalising just for now. Red, you know, we're very familiar
Milli Abrams:with red being a little bit more aggressive, a bit more in your
Milli Abrams:face, just open, just much more bold, And then blue is a really
Milli Abrams:great one for focusing. Again, not all blues. So when Indy was
Milli Abrams:having exams when he was younger and he used to pick up some
Milli Abrams:knitting (he doesn't tend to anymore), then I would have him
Milli Abrams:knit with blue yarns as a little break between study sessions,
Milli Abrams:because it would keep that part of his brain active but allow
Milli Abrams:him to have a little break from studying. So blue was great for
Milli Abrams:that. And I will use it. Like I said, if I need to be really
Milli Abrams:thinking and thinking spreadsheets and that kind of
Milli Abrams:thing, I'll pick up my blue project for a little bit and
Milli Abrams:just calm down with that, and then go straight into my
Milli Abrams:thinking piece.
Mia Hobbs:So you're very deliberate about your choices of
Mia Hobbs:what you're knitting with, to fit the circumstances in your
Mia Hobbs:life?
Milli Abrams:I mean, it just happens now. I think what I'm
Milli Abrams:deliberate about is making sure that I've got enough projects at
Milli Abrams:hand or around. I don't like to have more than three projects on
Milli Abrams:the go, because I am someone that likes to finish. I don't
Milli Abrams:tend to have lots of WIPs. I like finishing. But I do have
Milli Abrams:three that are intentionally quite different from each other
Milli Abrams:because of what they will do for my mental health.
Mia Hobbs:So that sounds very deliberate in that sense. And I
Mia Hobbs:think I certainly would relate to that: that the things I'm
Mia Hobbs:working on have to fit different needs for me. But I don't
Mia Hobbs:actually think about the colour in that way, which is really
Mia Hobbs:interesting. And actually, when I spoke to Betsan Corkhill, who
Mia Hobbs:is an expert in therapeutic knitting, she speaks a lot about
Mia Hobbs:the idea of using knitting to... rather than it reflecting the
Mia Hobbs:mood you're in, thinking about the mood you want to move
Mia Hobbs:yourself into. And that sounds very similar to your ethos.
Milli Abrams:Yeah. And also, with the finished garment, when
Milli Abrams:you're wearing it... Like I'll use the colours of the garments
Milli Abrams:that I'm wearing to convey a certain type of my personality
Milli Abrams:in a public setting, or not. So for example, for my whole life I
Milli Abrams:was an accountant; I so much was drawn to what people would refer
Milli Abrams:to as the winter colours, like cooler colours, and they do suit
Milli Abrams:me, your blacks, your whites, your strong reds, peacocks, that
Milli Abrams:kind of thing. And I was always really drawn to that. But it
Milli Abrams:does make me much less approachable as a person. So
Milli Abrams:when I opened the shop, one of the things that I talked to
Milli Abrams:Angela about (who's like the guru of colour therapy), she was
Milli Abrams:like, "Well, just make sure that you're never in there wearing
Milli Abrams:blacks and whites." So this new business of mine was not like
Milli Abrams:accounting; I needed to be approachable and soft. And I
Milli Abrams:needed to sort of bring out my more autumn aspects. So I wear a
Milli Abrams:lot more rich autumnal colours and navies and that kind of
Milli Abrams:thing, which also suit me but I wouldn't have dreamt of wearing
Milli Abrams:them as an accountant. I didn't want to be that person in that
Milli Abrams:setting, whereas I do now. And then conversely, if I'm going to
Milli Abrams:something else where I just want a bit more glamour, I'll wear
Milli Abrams:black again.
Mia Hobbs:I wonder whether that was also to do with... I'm
Mia Hobbs:guessing you were in a more male-dominated environment when
Mia Hobbs:you were in business? Or maybe needing to convey more power
Milli Abrams:Yeah, right in the beginning I was. I mean, I am
Milli Abrams:than you do in your yarn shop.
Milli Abrams:quite a small woman and I just needed more help with the power
Milli Abrams:that I was exuding when I was telling people no, they couldn't
Mia Hobbs:Yeah, sure. I wonder whether there are other ways
Mia Hobbs:have that money or whatever it was.
Mia Hobbs:that we haven't talked about that you feel knitting is
Mia Hobbs:beneficial for your mental wellbeing.
Milli Abrams:We get loads of people in the shop that will
Milli Abrams:come by and say, "Oh, that's lovely. I wish I could do that,
Milli Abrams:but I don't have the patience for that." And I am the least
Milli Abrams:patient person I've ever met in my life. I'm just not patient,
Milli Abrams:I'm not tolerant. And therefore knitting is even more important
Milli Abrams:for me than it would be for someone who already is calm and
Milli Abrams:zen and patient. So I think when people say that, I'd love the
Milli Abrams:people to know... especially men, I think, because they tend
Milli Abrams:to be more the ones that are like, "Oh, I don't have time. I
Milli Abrams:work." And the other thing I hear is "I don't have time." I
Milli Abrams:don't have time, I work crazy hours, but I still find time for
Milli Abrams:knitting. I think it's important to have something, especially in
Milli Abrams:this day and age when we are just overstimulated all the
Milli Abrams:time. If you could have something like meditating or
Milli Abrams:colouring in or knitting, that takes you off your device and
Milli Abrams:gives you something repetitive and small, and it is about those
Milli Abrams:micro movements, that's where the magic is, releasing the good
Milli Abrams:hormones. And with knitting that means not knitting on needles
Milli Abrams:that are more than about 5mm. There's a sweet spot with a
Milli Abrams:knitting needle to keep it micro, to get the maximum
Milli Abrams:benefit with your serotonin. Everyone sort of needs that, I
Milli Abrams:think, these days. I've actually lived on a desert island.
Mia Hobbs:And even then you still brought your knitting!
Milli Abrams:Yeah, and I would still bring my knitting!
Milli Abrams:[Laughs]
Mia Hobbs:I would too.
Milli Abrams:I meditate and I have done lots over the years.
Milli Abrams:And that comes and goes a lot more than my knitting does,
Milli Abrams:because at the end of the day I feel guilty about sitting down
Milli Abrams:and doing nothing. I just have that. I don't know what it is,
Milli Abrams:but I do feel guilty about that unless I'm knitting. And then
Milli Abrams:somewhere in my head, I know I'm creating and relaxing, and then
Milli Abrams:I can really let myself be in it and sit and do it for hours,
Milli Abrams:which is really important.
Mia Hobbs:I suppose I've heard quite often the idea that
Mia Hobbs:knitting is kind of a substitute for meditation, or a form of
Mia Hobbs:meditation. And several of the people I've spoken to, and
Mia Hobbs:certainly I think this is probably true of me, have
Mia Hobbs:classified themselves as failed meditators, therefore they are
Mia Hobbs:knitters, and they get a kind of similar thing from it. It sounds
Mia Hobbs:like you've stuck with your knitting maybe more constantly
Mia Hobbs:than you have with the meditation.
Milli Abrams:Yeah, definitely. I have stuck with knitting a lot
Milli Abrams:more. And I think mainly because it doesn't do the same thing for
Milli Abrams:me as meditating. Meditating is definitely much more intense.
Milli Abrams:But I think it's more the portability and the
Milli Abrams:practicality. So I can still do it at a train station and hear
Milli Abrams:when my train is coming and not be completely cut off from the
Milli Abrams:world. And when I do meditate, I do it to get to a much deeper
Milli Abrams:state, and it takes a lot longer, like two or three hours.
Milli Abrams:And it has to be silent, and I can't have the family running
Milli Abrams:around. I can't do that as often. I can pick up my knitting
Milli Abrams:ten times a day and just have a little meditative break with my
Milli Abrams:knitting, so I think that's why I do it a lot more. And these
Milli Abrams:days, yarns are SO much nicer than they used to be, and
Milli Abrams:patterns are just everywhere and so accessible. It's just so much
Milli Abrams:easier to find the right project.
Mia Hobbs:And in terms of what you're drawn to do you like a
Mia Hobbs:variety in terms of yarn? Is that also something that floats
Mia Hobbs:your boat?
Milli Abrams:Yeah, massively. So I love the super, super
Milli Abrams:rustic Icelandics. Absolutely love those. And then I really
Milli Abrams:like my super high end silks and cashmeres. It's important to me
Milli Abrams:that I know where the yarns come from, and then I know that it's
Milli Abrams:ethically made. And it's important to me that it doesn't
Milli Abrams:have plastic in it. But other than that, a wide variety and a
Milli Abrams:wide variety of gauges. And I do knit with chunky yarns
Milli Abrams:sometimes, usually if it's just because I have to make a short
Milli Abrams:sample/I have to bang out a gift really quickly. But my sort of
Milli Abrams:sweet spot for a needle is about the 3.75 range, and that will
Milli Abrams:give me the max pleasure.
Mia Hobbs:I'm the same actually. I've heard a lot of
Mia Hobbs:people on the podcast who don't like knitting on the smaller
Mia Hobbs:gauges. And I didn't know whether it was because of that,
Mia Hobbs:or just the things I wanted to knit recently, that I ended up
Mia Hobbs:knitting with some larger gauge... I mean larger for me,
Mia Hobbs:like an Aran weight yarn, so like a 5 maybe or 5.5. I'm quite
Mia Hobbs:a loose knitter. But my hands don't like it as much. I find
Mia Hobbs:that I don't get RSI at all if I knitted on 2.25 or 3 or quite
Mia Hobbs:tiny needles, and knitted with 4-ply. I could do that probably
Mia Hobbs:forever. Whereas if it gets bigger, even a DK, I think my
Mia Hobbs:hands struggle a bit more. And they don't love cotton either.
Milli Abrams:Yeah, there's no stretch in cotton. Unless you
Milli Abrams:get a chain knit. I've recently discovered really great chain
Milli Abrams:knits, which is a fairly new thing in the industry, because
Milli Abrams:the old chain knits were terrible. But the new chain
Milli Abrams:knits that they use cotton for have stretch in them, so if you
Mia Hobbs:That's interesting. I was interested in the idea about
Mia Hobbs:want to knit cotton, get a chain knit. It's brilliant. Okay. But
Mia Hobbs:the kind of things people say about knitting in the shop,
Mia Hobbs:yeah, the bigger needles, and it just becomes more of a macro
Mia Hobbs:movement and you tend to involve a bit more shoulder and elbow
Mia Hobbs:because you must have a lot of conversations with people who
Mia Hobbs:and things. It's not something that you can just do with your
Mia Hobbs:fingertips. Yeah, you need to fight a bit more with the process.
Mia Hobbs:are new or want to start knitting, and super-experienced
Mia Hobbs:knitters, about whether they say things about what knitting does
Mia Hobbs:for them, or what kind of questions they ask you, whether
Mia Hobbs:they ask for your help with colour?
Milli Abrams:Yeah, we get lots of feedback from knitters about
Milli Abrams:how, especially during lockdown, it just saved them, for a lot of
Milli Abrams:people.
Mia Hobbs:Is that more existing knitters, would you say?
Milli Abrams:No, both during lockdown actually. And then with
Milli Abrams:the experience, I'd say the majority was people that had
Milli Abrams:returned to knitting. So they've had the greatest benefit, and
Milli Abrams:they've usually not done it for a long time and they did it on
Milli Abrams:really old-style needles with old yarn, and everything's moved
Milli Abrams:on to such a huge extent that the tools are just 100%
Milli Abrams:different to what they used to be, and the yarns. So they've
Milli Abrams:had the greatest sort of wow moments. We have lots of people
Milli Abrams:who are experiencing grief who turned to knitting. And
Milli Abrams:actually, I think there's a lot of doctors that tell people that
Milli Abrams:they should try knitting when they're experiencing grief. And
Milli Abrams:it seems to really, really help them just sort of metabolise it,
Milli Abrams:I guess. What was your... oh, the colours. Yeah, colours is my
Milli Abrams:thing, so yes, I do get a lot of...
Mia Hobbs:So you enjoy having those conversations with people
Mia Hobbs:and helping them pick.
Milli Abrams:That's my favourite thing to do. And it's
Mia Hobbs:It's interesting that for you, you know more about the
Mia Hobbs:funny how there's so many people who feel really lost with
Mia Hobbs:colours, or really just don't trust themselves with it. And
Mia Hobbs:then you can get colours wrong. I feel actually physically
Mia Hobbs:nauseous when I see some colour combos, and it affects me viscerally.
Mia Hobbs:kind of mathematical formula of why. Because I think sometimes I
Mia Hobbs:probably have looked at a colourwork sweater and thought,
Mia Hobbs:"Ooh I'm not sure..." You know, you look on Ravelry and see lots
Mia Hobbs:of versions of the same sweater for inspiration, and then think,
Mia Hobbs:"Ooh, not that one." But I would just feel like it was my spidey
Mia Hobbs:senses or something. I wouldn't be able to put science on it,
Mia Hobbs:but that must be great!
Milli Abrams:Yeah, it is great! But there's also... Angela was
Milli Abrams:always very "You mustn't put this colour with this colour."
Milli Abrams:And yes, there is that, but I also really love to have a
Milli Abrams:disrupter in there somewhere, so long as it's the right type of
Milli Abrams:disrupter. You don't want something that was lovely and
Milli Abrams:energetic, and then had a weird sort of drab colour in there
Milli Abrams:that just made it all fall apart. That's not the right
Milli Abrams:disrupter. But if you had something that was a whole bunch
Milli Abrams:of, say, neutrals with a pastel or something, and then you
Milli Abrams:chucked in one disruptive colour that just gave that piece a lot
Milli Abrams:of energy, that's my favourite sort of thing to do.
Mia Hobbs:Do you know, my mum says that about... she's like,
Mia Hobbs:"You need one (she'll call it) ugly colour in there, to make
Mia Hobbs:the others look great." [Laughs] But she's great with colour.
Mia Hobbs:She's so good and confident from just, I don't know, natural
Mia Hobbs:ability and being artistic.
Milli Abrams:Yeah! And years of practice.
Mia Hobbs:Yeah. But she's really good at experimenting and
Mia Hobbs:seeing what works, and changing it if it doesn't.
Milli Abrams:And that's the other thing: you've got to be
Milli Abrams:willing to change it if it doesn't work and to make the
Milli Abrams:mistakes. And if you want to get good at it, you've just got
Milli Abrams:to keep practising and be open to your own feedback and realise
Milli Abrams:when actually no, that's not good.
Mia Hobbs:Do you think you've always been so good at ripping
Mia Hobbs:out? Or tolerant of it? Because I think I've definitely got
Mia Hobbs:better over time, and now other people are much more traumatised
Mia Hobbs:watching me do it than I feel about doing it.
Milli Abrams:Oh yeah. Darren used to be horrified that I used
Milli Abrams:to finish a whole thing and then find one thing at the beginning
Milli Abrams:where I would wish I'd stuck a colour in or something, and I'd
Milli Abrams:rip it all back. But yeah, I've always been totally fine because
Milli Abrams:I'm a process knitter and I don't really care about the
Milli Abrams:final knitted thing to own or wear. It's the process. The only
Milli Abrams:thing that really traumatises me, I'd say, (if it's trauma) is
Milli Abrams:I'm terrible about cutting... you know where it says "break
Milli Abrams:yarn". I know that I will very often go back and rip things
Milli Abrams:out, so I beat myself up over cutting a yarn where I probably
Milli Abrams:shouldn't have cut it, and I should have left it attached to
Mia Hobbs:Because the ends are worse, aren't they, for that? If
Mia Hobbs:the ball because I almost definitely always go back. I
Mia Hobbs:don't like ends. I just don't like too many ends. I've knit
Mia Hobbs:with silks and cottons so much that ends are a little bit of a
Mia Hobbs:trauma to me.
Mia Hobbs:it was a sheep's wool, we could spit splice it.
Milli Abrams:Exactly. I don't mind cutting those. I'm awful at
Milli Abrams:having these projects with loads of balls attached because I
Milli Abrams:refuse to cut anything until it's done. [Laughs]
Mia Hobbs:I would love to ask about a significant knitting
Mia Hobbs:project for you. It could be something that feels significant
Mia Hobbs:in your journey with knitting or for your life.
Milli Abrams:That's a good question. I think for a long
Milli Abrams:time, it would have been the blanket that I made for Indy
Milli Abrams:when I was pregnant. That was very personal to him. But I
Milli Abrams:couldn't even tell you where that is now. We might have lost
Milli Abrams:it in the hurricane, I don't know. I make a conscious effort
Milli Abrams:to not be attached to anything physical, so I try not to get
Milli Abrams:really, really attached to the actual thing. But in terms of
Milli Abrams:the process...
Mia Hobbs:Even just the process of being somewhere significant
Mia Hobbs:at a time in your life while you made it.
Milli Abrams:Yeah, definitely the pregnancy ones. I mean, I
Milli Abrams:like some projects where you've designed it yourself. I guess it
Milli Abrams:means a lot more than when I'm knitting off another pattern.
Milli Abrams:And normally, that's because I've knit it like 7, 8, 9 times
Milli Abrams:and ripped it back and knit it again just to get it right. So
Milli Abrams:you spend a lot of time with it and you're a bit more invested
Milli Abrams:in those projects. I've never knit anything for Darren so I
Milli Abrams:can't say that it's anything massively significant that I've
Milli Abrams:made for family that they hugely appreciate. I knit a hat for my
Milli Abrams:granddad a couple of years ago for Christmas that made him
Milli Abrams:throw up immediately. It was terrible! A beautiful cashmere
Milli Abrams:hat but he overheated straightaway because he couldn't
Milli Abrams:take it off! And then he threw up. So I remember that one!
Mia Hobbs:Oh no! Lots of people have spoken about things they've
Mia Hobbs:made in significant times, like for example grief has come up
Mia Hobbs:very often. I think for me, it's often like... I don't know, the
Mia Hobbs:first time I needed a sweater and actually made something that
Mia Hobbs:fitted me. You know, I knitted a lot of non-gauge-determined
Mia Hobbs:items at the beginning like shawls and maybe a hat but
Mia Hobbs:they're kind of stretchy and more forgiving than a sweater.
Milli Abrams:Yeah, I can't even remember the last time I made a
Milli Abrams:sweater, or the first time I made a sweater that fit. I don't
Milli Abrams:think I ever tried to make sweaters that really fit. I
Milli Abrams:haven't really tried to do that until I had the shop and I was
Milli Abrams:leading knit-alongs and things, and I had to teach other people
Milli Abrams:that wanted to keep their knits for some reason [laughs] how to
Milli Abrams:make it fit.
Mia Hobbs:Have you not kept even sweaters for yourself?
Milli Abrams:No, I don't keep them. They're all shop samples.
Milli Abrams:I get to wear them, so I'll wear them home or they might sit in
Milli Abrams:my wardrobe for a weekend when I'm at home and then I'll wash
Milli Abrams:them and take them back to the shop and they'll be a shop
Milli Abrams:sample. I don't tend to have my own. Everything really belongs
Milli Abrams:to the shop and then I borrow them.
Mia Hobbs:So you've got a never-ending stream of new
Mia Hobbs:things to wear for a weekend!
Milli Abrams:I have, yeah! As long as I'm organised enough to
Milli Abrams:remember to take it home from the shop that night, which is
Milli Abrams:great for the shawls and things for some of them are quite
Milli Abrams:dressy. So yeah, I've got like a big tickle trunk of possible
Milli Abrams:knits at the shop that I can borrow whenever I want to. But
Milli Abrams:we've recently moved to a boat, and again, I don't have very
Milli Abrams:much wardrobe space. So yes, I just use the shop as a wardrobe
Milli Abrams:space.
Mia Hobbs:Perfect! And you can keep on knitting. You don't have
Mia Hobbs:to feel guilty when your wardrobe is full!
Milli Abrams:Yeah! And in Canada, whenever I knit, I used
Milli Abrams:to give all the stuff to my mates and then I'd borrow it
Milli Abrams:back when I was like, "Oh, I really want the... you know".
Milli Abrams:And we all lived fairly close to one another, so I'd just nip by
Milli Abrams:and grab that jumper back for whatever reason. And we sort of
Milli Abrams:just shared all my knits, I suppose. I just never kept them
Milli Abrams:at our home. So yeah, I like that about knitting.
Mia Hobbs:Does it bother you if people don't... Some people I've
Mia Hobbs:spoken to have said, "There's certain people I WOULD knit for
Mia Hobbs:because they kind of get it" like a) how many hours went into
Mia Hobbs:that; b) how to look after it properly if it's wool or
Mia Hobbs:something like that, don't just felt it the first time you wash
Mia Hobbs:it. [Laughs] Does that bother you or will you literally set
Mia Hobbs:them free into the world and don't think about them again?
Milli Abrams:I won't make something for someone that's
Milli Abrams:asked for something, if they don't know what it is they're
Milli Abrams:asking for. And people are always asking, and I'll get
Milli Abrams:messages on Instagram or whatever from friend, "Can you
Milli Abrams:make my wife one of those or whatever?" And I'll be like,
Milli Abrams:"No. I mean, I could but it's going to cost you £600. That's
Milli Abrams:my time."
Mia Hobbs:Well, that's cheap! You've not given yourself a
Mia Hobbs:decent hourly rate, Milli! [Laughs]
Milli Abrams:Well, that is cheap! [Laughs]
Mia Hobbs:And the yarn!
Milli Abrams:So no, I don't make stuff for people that don't
Milli Abrams:get it. If they really get it and they really want it, then
Milli Abrams:absolutely, I'll make it for them. And if I know that they're
Milli Abrams:not going to look after it, and they've asked for it, then they
Milli Abrams:won't get it. But generally, if it's something that I was making
Milli Abrams:anyway, and someone's said that they'd quite like it, then they
Milli Abrams:can have it and there's no questions asked. I will mention
Milli Abrams:to them that they shouldn't chuck it in the washing machine
Milli Abrams:or they won't be able to wear it very much. But then if it's
Milli Abrams:theirs, and it's gone, I don't even think about it again I
Milli Abrams:think. You know, after it's gone, it's gone.
Mia Hobbs:Do you knit quite fast?
Milli Abrams:Very fast. Yeah, I'm extremely fast. Recently
Milli Abrams:we've had people in the shop... Because I've not been on the
Milli Abrams:shop floor as much, I've been back in the office or downstairs
Milli Abrams:in the back or wherever, and I've heard people say (or the
Milli Abrams:girls have said that another person said) "Does Milli really
Milli Abrams:knit all those knits or does she have like an army of minions in
Milli Abrams:the background making the stuff?" I knit all my knits
Milli Abrams:myself. It's important for me to experience all of the yarn
Milli Abrams:myself, but I am very fast. And I'm small, so I make the smaller
Milli Abrams:size [laughs] which really helps!
Mia Hobbs:But don't you seem from Instagram to have produced
Mia Hobbs:knits that look great on a whole number of family members as
Mia Hobbs:well?
Milli Abrams:The shawls! The shawls fit everyone.
Mia Hobbs:Are they all shawls? Have I not seen sweaters on Indy
Milli Abrams:Oh I do do that! I do make my son wear... yeah, I
Milli Abrams:or...?
Milli Abrams:mean, they are small for him. He didn't go out wearing them.
Mia Hobbs:He's very tolerant of it!
Milli Abrams:Oh he's amazing. He'll do whatever I ask him to
Milli Abrams:do. He doesn't really care what anyone thinks. He'll just do
Milli Abrams:whatever he wants. But I will quite often put it on him
Milli Abrams:because I want to see what the shoulders or the neckline might
Milli Abrams:look like on a man, or how it'll fit if you haven't got boobs, or
Milli Abrams:what that colour might look like on someone else, or does a very
Milli Abrams:soft mohair look alright on a bloke that's got a beard, that
Milli Abrams:kind of thing. So yeah, I will make the family try... you know,
Milli Abrams:my dad will try on a lot of my stuff. My dad loves trying
Milli Abrams:things on for me and he quite often gets them. He's got loads
Milli Abrams:of my knits in his wardrobe, but I never see him actually wear
Milli Abrams:them after the first time. So I should really take them back
Milli Abrams:[laughs] and give them to someone else. But they are
Milli Abrams:small. I do knit oversize arms. I like really long arms. Maybe
Milli Abrams:that's why they get away with it.
Mia Hobbs:You like to wear them?
Milli Abrams:I like to wear overly long sleeves.
Mia Hobbs:I always end with asking: what's the greatest gift
Mia Hobbs:that knitting has given you for the rest of your life?
Milli Abrams:It's very important. I think it's probably
Milli Abrams:added several years to my life.
Milli Abrams:Just in the calming and, you know, not being
Mia Hobbs:In what way specifically, do you think?
Mia Hobbs:frazzled and stressed and giving myself a stress-induced disease,
Mia Hobbs:I think. All that time where people think it's wasted,
Mia Hobbs:knitting, it's probably not. It's probably adding that much
Mia Hobbs:time and then some at the end of your life, you know? It's not a
Mia Hobbs:waste of time. And I think the biggest, biggest gift is that it
Mia Hobbs:makes me a much easier person to be around and to live with for
Mia Hobbs:my family, because I'm not totally frazzled all the time if
Mia Hobbs:I've got my knitting. And they get some downtime from me. I'm
Mia Hobbs:very A Type. I'm always needing things to do because I can't sit
Mia Hobbs:still. But it gives them a break to just sit and chill when they
Mia Hobbs:know that I'm not going to bother them because I'm in my knitting.
Mia Hobbs:So it does sound like it really has a regulating kind
Mia Hobbs:of function for you.
Milli Abrams:Massively. And I notice it very much if I have
Milli Abrams:not picked up my needles that day or for a couple of days. I
Milli Abrams:feel like I really need some time, and I'm just going to grab
Milli Abrams:my needles and just be.
Mia Hobbs:Yeah. I feel like I can feel it physically as well,
Mia Hobbs:that I need to kind of have... My grandma used to slightly
Mia Hobbs:sneakily still smoke and think we didn't know about it.
Mia Hobbs:[Laughs] It was almost like after she'd eaten her dinner,
Mia Hobbs:she'd get a bit agitated and feel like she needed to smoke.
Mia Hobbs:And I've felt exactly the same about my knitting.
Milli Abrams:Absolutely. There's times where you just
Milli Abrams:feel a bit antsy and a bit up, and you're just like, "Right,
Milli Abrams:let's just go sit over there, grab some knitting and just calm
Milli Abrams:down for a while." So I think that's the greatest, greatest
Milli Abrams:gift, that you've got a tool that allows you to have instant
Milli Abrams:stress relief, and you can take it anywhere you go, and it makes
Milli Abrams:a lot of the more stressful times in your life, like sitting
Milli Abrams:in traffic (not when you're driving, obviously) or waiting
Milli Abrams:for something where you can just get more and more riled up. It
Milli Abrams:makes those times the complete opposite of what they would have
Milli Abrams:been, which I think is huge. I don't know how people cope! I
Milli Abrams:don't know how people live that don't have the knitting.
Mia Hobbs:I did end up doing a lot of waiting for hospital
Mia Hobbs:appointments a few years ago, sometimes three hours in this
Mia Hobbs:particular department that I had to go back to a couple of times,
Mia Hobbs:and everybody else had their phones and they'd by the end run
Mia Hobbs:out of phone battery. And I was knitting and I thought, "Next
Mia Hobbs:time I come here, if I have to come back, I'm bringing extra
Mia Hobbs:yarn and needles!" because there were people who were then
Mia Hobbs:striking up conversation about my knitting, because I was the
Mia Hobbs:only one doing anything other than on their phone, which I
Mia Hobbs:think makes people look unapproachable, I guess, if
Mia Hobbs:they're looking down at a phone. And they were asking me about
Mia Hobbs:it. And I felt so lucky!
Milli Abrams:Well, because the other thing that makes you more
Milli Abrams:approachable, I think, as a knitter and as a social knitter,
Milli Abrams:if you're someone that has anxiety about social settings
Milli Abrams:and new people, is that when you've got your knitting you can
Milli Abrams:have a really good mix of eye contact with people and then an
Milli Abrams:excuse to break your eye contact in a non-awkward way. So you've
Milli Abrams:always got your knitting that you can look down at, but you
Milli Abrams:can also look up and maintain decent eye contact. There's no
Milli Abrams:pressure or awkward social pressure to keep looking at the
Milli Abrams:person that you're interacting with. So I think that's also why
Milli Abrams:a lot of people that have that awkwardness, it's good for them
Milli Abrams:when they've got their knitting and they feel like they can
Milli Abrams:approach you more, because you haven't got to be that intense
Milli Abrams:with them because you're already doing something. And it's not
Milli Abrams:like, you know, when you're reading a book, you don't want
Milli Abrams:to approach that person because they've got to be looking at
Milli Abrams:their book to continue what they're doing. But you can talk
Milli Abrams:to someone that's knitting.
Mia Hobbs:And I certainly find my concentration... I have a
Mia Hobbs:very flighty concentration span, I suppose. Like if I'm sitting
Mia Hobbs:in a busy waiting room, I wouldn't be able to really focus
Mia Hobbs:on a book, I don't think, or on a bus. Whereas I totally could
Mia Hobbs:knit. But I wouldn't have enough focus to just read, I don't
Mia Hobbs:think.
Milli Abrams:Yeah, I'm either not into the book enough, and
Milli Abrams:I'm not focused because I'm concentrating on other stuff and
Milli Abrams:have to listen for my stop, or I'm so into my book that I'm
Milli Abrams:going to miss my stop. But when I used to get on my little bus
Milli Abrams:in the Caribbean, that took me down to a boat, that was fine. I
Milli Abrams:could read because everyone else on the bus would tell me when it
Milli Abrams:was time to get off at the next stop! [Laughs] And that's fine.
Milli Abrams:I used to really get into a book then. But that's...
Mia Hobbs:That's not going to happen in London. [Laughs]
Milli Abrams:I mean, I guess you could ask the person next to
Milli Abrams:you, "Can you just tap me when it's such-and-such stop?" But we
Milli Abrams:don't do that, do we?
Mia Hobbs:No, we don't. We should be more Caribbean in our
Mia Hobbs:attitude! You wouldn't see the same people every day, that's
Mia Hobbs:for sure.
Milli Abrams:No, no.
Mia Hobbs:Interesting that you said the more senior you got,
Mia Hobbs:the more possible it felt to knit during meetings to help you
Mia Hobbs:concentrate. And certainly I've found that as well. But now I
Mia Hobbs:feel like I have more confidence. And I think it's
Mia Hobbs:helps that some stuff is over Zoom. I just don't believe
Mia Hobbs:humans are designed to sit down and do a six hour training
Mia Hobbs:course and not move!
Milli Abrams:No! Not at all.
Mia Hobbs:And I feel like if I knit, it's the perfect level of:
Mia Hobbs:my hands are busy and my brain is available for concentrating.
Mia Hobbs:Whereas if I wasn't doing that, I feel like my brain might
Mia Hobbs:freelance onto something even more distracting, and then
Mia Hobbs:actually draw my concentration away from what I'm supposed to
Mia Hobbs:be focusing on.
Milli Abrams:It's like doodling, isn't it? It's like a
Milli Abrams:form of doodling. But you end up with an actual 3D possibly
Milli Abrams:useful thing at the end of it.
Mia Hobbs:You described yourself as a Type A person. How
Mia Hobbs:much does having something tangible that you've created add
Mia Hobbs:to the appeal of knitting? You said you like to finish things.
Mia Hobbs:Do you get a certain sense of achievement from... I guess lots
Mia Hobbs:of the things we do are on a screen and you can't really see
Mia Hobbs:your progress. You've done a day's work, but it's not really
Mia Hobbs:visible. Whereas with knitting you have a thing you can show
Mia Hobbs:and feel and touch.
Milli Abrams:You have a thing, yeah. And there's a beginning
Milli Abrams:and an end. I think, for me, that's more important than
Milli Abrams:actually having the thing, because I don't ever really want
Milli Abrams:the thing. But I like that there's a finite end to a thing
Milli Abrams:and you can finish an actual project and it's gone. I think,
Milli Abrams:in my experience with knitting and all the people around me
Milli Abrams:that knit, it seems to be a more male need, maybe, or more
Milli Abrams:important from an actual creating point of view and
Milli Abrams:having a thing that you've sculpted and made. That seems to
Milli Abrams:make the boys... I've noticed that they have a lot more
Milli Abrams:satisfaction about having the final piece, about the creation.
Milli Abrams:I mean, women do too but it's very much more noticeable with
Milli Abrams:guys - that they've got like a thing that they've made. For me,
Milli Abrams:it's more the beginning of it. I genuinely get the same pleasure
Milli Abrams:out of a really great spreadsheet. [Laughs] I love a
Milli Abrams:spreadsheet! Whenever I've got one that I've 'birthed', and
Milli Abrams:then it's finished and it's magnificent, then I love that
Milli Abrams:too. And that's not a tangible thing, so I know that for me it
Milli Abrams:doesn't have to be something I can hold. But I like that
Milli Abrams:there's an ending.
Mia Hobbs:I think one of the things we talk about, like when
Mia Hobbs:we're using knitting for people who are maybe struggling with
Mia Hobbs:low mood or something, we talk about having two types of tasks
that are helpful:something that's intrinsically enjoyable,
that are helpful:and something that gives you a sense of achievement. So even if
that are helpful:I tidied my desk or my workspace, that might not be fun
that are helpful:for me but I could look at it and think, "Oh, well done me. I
that are helpful:did that." But I guess knitting gives you both, and it's harder
that are helpful:to deny progress if you can see it and hold it in your hand.
Milli Abrams:Yeah! And a new learned technique. That's hugely
Milli Abrams:satisfying, when you're learning something a lot of the time, or
Mia Hobbs:So you're someone who likes the uncharted new
Mia Hobbs:you're coming across a new colour combo. Do you know, one
Mia Hobbs:of the really cool things in the shop is when we willl get a
Mia Hobbs:bunch of customers and someone will put a yarn down on the
Mia Hobbs:counter that they want, and someone else puts another yarn
Mia Hobbs:down on the counter, and they happen to be next to each other
Mia Hobbs:and you just think, "Wow! I never would have put those
Mia Hobbs:territory, aren't you? In the colour combos, but also in the
Mia Hobbs:colours together, but wow!" I love that.
Mia Hobbs:techniques. That's a driver for you.
Milli Abrams:The learning, yeah, and I think that's really
Milli Abrams:important as well. There's different types of people.
Milli Abrams:There's some people that are the perfectionists and they have to
Milli Abrams:get it right, and they need the finished article, and that's
Milli Abrams:where they derive their sense of achievement and enjoyment. And
Milli Abrams:there's others that are process driven, like me, and then
Milli Abrams:there's people where we just want to constantly be changing
Milli Abrams:and learning and moving and that's who I am. And I think
Milli Abrams:it's really good for... don't they say it's great for
Milli Abrams:cognitive function and the ageing brain, if you can keep
Milli Abrams:learning and keep introducing new skills and rebuilding in all
Milli Abrams:those pathways.
Mia Hobbs:Yeah! And I guess if you think about your past, you
Mia Hobbs:didn't get to be... was it CFO?... and work with Richard
Mia Hobbs:Branson, unless you were a high-achieving, ambitious
Mia Hobbs:person. And I guess all of that drive is in you somewhere, and
Mia Hobbs:it's going in your knitting and learning new techniques.
Milli Abrams:Yeah, there is that but also, as an accountant,
Milli Abrams:I'm the very outside of the box... you know, creative... I'm
Milli Abrams:not a creative accountant in the bad sense, but I am an outside
Milli Abrams:the box accountant that is driven... I'll look at different
Milli Abrams:things with performance, and holistically as a business as a
Milli Abrams:whole. So my style of accounting really worked for him in that
Milli Abrams:business, and the way that I will lead a team is like that.
Milli Abrams:And it is also the way that I approach my knitting. Whereas
Milli Abrams:Darren, my husband, is an accountant but he's a much more
Milli Abrams:detail-driven in-the-weeds accountant, and he doesn't have
Milli Abrams:an interest in knitting things and wouldn't know where to start
Milli Abrams:with creating a project or chucking colours together,
Milli Abrams:because that's not who he is. Actually it would stress him
Milli Abrams:out. I sometimes say, "What do you think of this colour and
Milli Abrams:this colour?" and he's just like, "What?! I don't even..."
Mia Hobbs:But that creativity is a driver for you?
Milli Abrams:Yeah, the creativity's a driver for me but
Milli Abrams:I recognise that with some people, unless they've got the
Milli Abrams:formula and the pattern and it's written out, and the
Milli Abrams:predictability of how the colours will work, they'll get
Milli Abrams:really stressed out about it. But once that bit is taken care
Milli Abrams:of, then they find it equally enjoyable to sit and knit.
Mia Hobbs:And actually, that's amazing, isn't it? That knitting
Mia Hobbs:could be a great task for both different types of people with
Mia Hobbs:very different... cognitive needs, we could call it, I
Mia Hobbs:suppose. The fact that you can get your needs met in your way,
Mia Hobbs:being more creative.
Milli Abrams:Yeah, so that's very interesting. And that's why
Milli Abrams:I think that it's so good at bringing together all the
Milli Abrams:different types of people. You don't have to be a particular
Milli Abrams:type of person to enjoy knitting; you can pretty much be
Milli Abrams:any background and any type and your brain can work in any way.
Milli Abrams:You could be someone that has to be predictable and methodical,
Milli Abrams:or someone that likes the chaos like I do. Actually, I like the
Milli Abrams:chaos but then I really like the order and the maths side of
Milli Abrams:knitting. So yeah, it all works.
Mia Hobbs:You're running Knit Nites, aren't you, at Tribe?
Milli Abrams:Yeah. At the minute they're virtual.
Mia Hobbs:But they were in person for a while, weren't
Mia Hobbs:they?
Milli Abrams:They were.
Mia Hobbs:Is there anything that surprises you about the
Mia Hobbs:conversations that come up, that feels different about the kind
Mia Hobbs:of conversations people have while their knitting, compared
Mia Hobbs:to if people were in a pub or a restaurant or...?
Milli Abrams:I mean, we talk a lot more about yarns and
Milli Abrams:patterns and things! [Laughs]
Mia Hobbs:Yeah sure. I guess many of the people don't know
Mia Hobbs:each other? Or do they? Before they come?
Milli Abrams:Yeah. It's a lot easier to sit in a group when
Milli Abrams:you've got your knitting, than say if you're all sat there in a
Milli Abrams:circle with nothing but each other! And we get new people all
Milli Abrams:the time. Every week we've got at least one new person, and
Milli Abrams:that's great. We've all got something that unites us all,
Milli Abrams:but we all recognise that we're extremely different. And on our
Milli Abrams:virtual Knit Nites we're global. We're all over the world. We've
Milli Abrams:got people in Finland and Australia and the States and
Milli Abrams:Portugal and from all over the place in different time zones on
Milli Abrams:this one call, and that's nice. We're all knitting very
Milli Abrams:different things in different colours, and we can all
Milli Abrams:appreciate what the other person's making.
Mia Hobbs:I think that's another thing, you know, you
Mia Hobbs:were talking about the idea of being able to regulate your eye
Mia Hobbs:contact when you're knitting. I guess the other thing is you do
Mia Hobbs:just have an automatic topic of conversation, even with
Mia Hobbs:non-knitters when they talk to you on a bus or something. It's
Mia Hobbs:in a way less awkward. They can ask you about your knitting
Mia Hobbs:or...
Milli Abrams:It's like having a cute baby. I mean that's when
Milli Abrams:you've always got people that will come and talk to you if
Milli Abrams:you've got a cute dog or a baby.
Mia Hobbs:Yes, this is true. [Laughs]
Milli Abrams:It is kind of like that. For ages we were thought
Milli Abrams:of as really weird. I was a closet knitter for a very long
Milli Abrams:time in my childhood, because it was not cool to be knitting. You
Milli Abrams:didn't tell anyone that you did it. But it is cool now! It's
Milli Abrams:kind of fine. It's a little bit fringe, but it's fine.
Mia Hobbs:Yeah, I was certainly... I mean I didn't
Mia Hobbs:always knit. Sometimes I was doing other things like cross
Mia Hobbs:stitch, and I don't think I realised how much I needed it
Mia Hobbs:for my mental wellbeing. But I would always get my revision
Mia Hobbs:done quite early, and then the night before exams I'd be
Mia Hobbs:secretly in my bedroom cross stitching. Because obviously, if
Mia Hobbs:you did that openly, people would be annoyed at you that
Mia Hobbs:you'd finished revising, but I just get to the point where I'm
Mia Hobbs:done. Psychologically, I can't cram any more into this brain.
Mia Hobbs:Now I'm doing something else. But I feel like it almost opened
Mia Hobbs:a different trapdoor in my mind, that doing something rhythmical
Mia Hobbs:with my hands allowed the revision to percolate in a way,
Mia Hobbs:I felt.
Milli Abrams:Yeah, definitely. And it was a reward for me as
Milli Abrams:well. I'd get a whole bunch of revision done, and then allow
Milli Abrams:myself to go knit a few more line, because it was just so
Milli Abrams:good. I know some people would reward themselves with cake or a
Milli Abrams:cigarette or something, but knitting's a super healthy way
Milli Abrams:of rewarding yourself, I guess, with hindsight.
Mia Hobbs:I relearnt, actually. My mum insisted I learnt when I
Mia Hobbs:started my doctorate in Clinical Psychology, because she thought
Mia Hobbs:it was a good thing to do. And it did turn out to be the
Mia Hobbs:perfect thing for revision breaks. I was knitting a big
Mia Hobbs:shawl, so they had rows, and you could do a row or two rows, and
Mia Hobbs:then there's a finite end to your break. And then you go back
Mia Hobbs:to the books.
Milli Abrams:Yeah. You do have to be disciplined enough to say,
Milli Abrams:"I'm not going to just do one more row."
Mia Hobbs:Or when you're knitting in the round, it's even
Mia Hobbs:harder. [Laughs] The rows are less finite. Well, Milli, it has
Mia Hobbs:been an absolute pleasure to talk to you. Thank you so much
Mia Hobbs:for joining me on the podcast. If people want to find out more
Mia Hobbs:about you or Tribe, how would they find out more?
Milli Abrams:Probably through the Tribe Yarns website:
Milli Abrams:www.tribeyarns.com. And then I do send out a newsletter, which
Milli Abrams:tends to be long and has a lot in it, but I only do that once
Milli Abrams:every month or every six weeks. I'm not very good at sending
Milli Abrams:that more often than that. So subscribe to the newsletter. And
Milli Abrams:follow me on Instagram @tribeyarnslife where there's
Milli Abrams:always lots of pictures of me and my family.
Mia Hobbs:In beautiful Richmond!
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